It's been years but I'm struggling
When my 14 year old niece took her own live nearly 4 years ago I made a promise to stop SI and got a beautiful tattoo in her memory in the area I used to cut.
Its not been easy but since then I have been mostly SI free (full disclosure i had a couple of slips early on but in a different area I did not find the same release).
The last 6 months or so have been so stressful, with a chronic conditions that I take very powerful painkillers, problems with housing which is still on going and relationship issues I'm finding it harder and harder to deal with.
I don't drink because of the tablets i'm on however i do smoke weed mainly to help with pain control and stress, but recently i'm using more as its one of the only things that helps when triggered. I know this is unhealthy but I don't know what else to do but give in.
I just needed to get this out so thank you for the chance to rant.