Contains Suicide - Reaching the End

[effervescence]

Had enough.
Can't cope. Can't keep pretending, every hour of every day.
Don't enjoy my job.
Have no friends, not a single one. Have not been out on a social trip (coffee, movie etc) for years.
Flatmates have noticed.

Tried meds, tried therapy. Nothing changes.
The only thing stopping me is fear of ending up paralysed/brain damaged.
No way out?

[crazykat]

It sounds like you are in a really hard place right now. It can be hard when it feels like things have been this way for a long time and to have no hope of things changing. Please don't give up hope though things can get better. Have you spoken to your supports about the way your feeling? Perhaps they could suggest other options for you.

It can be hard to see things ever changing if we have nothing that brings us pleasure. Would it be possible to look at changing jobs/careers sometimes getting into something we enjoy can give us a bit more of a sense of purpose. Also what about finding out if where you live has any kinds of groups/activities you could join as that could be a way of meeting new people and forming some new connections. Hold on there, you will make it through this

[Fran86]

Sorry to hear you're having such a tough time. If you want to have a "virtual coffee" with me, that may be a good place to start? I went through a long period of time where I didn't want to see my friends and subsequently lost touch with a lot of people. Do you feel like you have isolated yourself? Please don't give up.