Triggering (Suicide) - I don't know what else to do...

'LlyC · 06-11-2008, 04:22 AM

My ex spread rumors that I was cheating on my boyfriend with her and some other people. He believed her over me. So now we're over.

I would never ever even think of doing anything to hurt him. I truly truly fell in love with him. And now he completely hates me.

She's skrewed up my life enough.

She's made it clear she wants me dead. Now I don't know what else to do.

I don't know who to live for. He helped me. He got me better, healed.

SecretMe · 06-11-2008, 04:37 AM

I know you have to seriously be hurting right now...

I want to answer your questions though. You should live for yourself, do it for yourself, because you deserve it!

Honey, you have been hurt enough! You deserve happiness and a life and if that means you have to walk away from people who don't have the faith in you that they should, then so be it. There WILL be people who see your worth and who will love you for who you are.

I know this doesn't take the grief and pain you feel away. It doesn't fix what has been done and it will take time for wounds to heal. I believe you can get through this with support and help.

I am here for you, just emal or PM me anytime. Also, this community is behind you all the way.

Please hang in there... take care and be kind to yourself. You need that right now.

*hugs*

'LlyC · 06-11-2008, 04:43 AM

I...Guess I don't really know how to be good to myself... Everytime I think I'm happy. Or think I'm free. It gets taken away from me.

I don't know how to take care of myself. Or others. All I ever do I cause hurt to other people. Or make them worry about me.

I don't want that anymore.

I don't know what else to do. How do I...be good...?

SecretMe · 06-11-2008, 05:07 AM

You are already doing good things for yourself right now. You are sharing your feelings and thoughts with us to get support for yourself, you are searching for answers and a way to make it through, and there is a part of you that isn't giving up.

Now, how to be good to yourself? If this is really hard for you, take it one small step at a time.

I am going to PM you.

Be safe ok and know you are cared for...

Wonderland. · 06-11-2008, 05:43 PM

Sweetie if you die which is what you think she wants then she has won she will have got what she wanted.
Don't let her win.
Your better than this hun.

x

OhSoAvalanche · 06-11-2008, 05:48 PM

do something for yorself. thats what people tell me.
it works though if i go get my hair or nails done or something like that
i feel better about myself a little more
you feel more like youre worth something
which you are.

shieldworld · 06-11-2008, 06:26 PM

Sweetie, you're still alive right?
So you're fighting her.
And if I'm honest, if your bf broke up with you because of lies your EX was spreading about you (exes are always going to be bitter) then he obviously isn't good enough for an angel like you.

Keep safe sweetie, we're here for you always.