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Old 15-05-2008, 09:39 PM   #1
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Triggering (Sexual Abuse) - Does it get any better?

When i was 10 i was raped...
Every night since i have seen that guy in my dreams i just wanted to know does it ever go away?
And sometimes i feel as though i am worth nothing at all, because that's what he told me,I know i shouldn't believe it but i can't help thinking that i am.
Also about a year ago i saw the same guy again which just made thing's worse,even though he didn't recognize me..




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Old 15-05-2008, 11:46 PM   #2
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It will ease with time and when you deal with it inside you hun. Have you a counsellor to talk to in real life? It does help to discuss feelings and such things with someone...

*hugs* You're not worthless though sweetie, and you didn't deserve it at all. Take care xxx



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Old 16-05-2008, 12:23 AM   #3
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Hey sweetie,

I'm so sorry that happened to you. Is it okay to hug you? I don't want to if it scares/upsets you just now. The pain and nightmares do ease in time, love, I promise. Does anyone else know what happened? It can be such a relief not having to cope on your own if nobody does know yet. But all in your own time - you're in control. And you're not worthless - not worthless at all. PM me anytime you need to talk about anything. Take care and stay safe,

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Old 16-05-2008, 05:10 PM   #4
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Hi,
Yes you can hug me..
And No i don't have a counseller in real life because i find it hard to talk to anyone who is a stranger..
I have talked to a few people about it but i always get the feeling that they want to avoide me afterwards because they don't how to cope with me...




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Old 17-05-2008, 12:09 AM   #5
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*cuddles and holds gently* I know how you feel about talking to strangers - could you talk to someone over the phone? Or would you prefer talking through letters or over the Internet? I know of some support lines that do this, but only if you want to. I think some are listed in the Stickies at the top of this Forum. Sometimes people just don't know what to say to help - this is where letterwriting is good to tell them how. Is there any particular person who you trust enough to write to?

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Old 17-05-2008, 08:14 PM   #6
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Unfortunately no matter what form they are in i still won't talk to them..
I find it hard enough talk to people i do know really well some day's...
Though i don't know why...
I've tried talking to mentor before at school but i just ended up in tears and didn't go again....




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Old 18-05-2008, 12:16 AM   #7
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It's okay, I really do understand. Talking is a difficult thing - there's no pressure at all, love. Thinking about the nightmares - how are they at the moment? Is it getting to sleep that's tricky or just when you're already asleep? *holds hands gently*

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Old 19-05-2008, 12:25 AM   #8
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I get to sleep okay atm because im on medication that makes me sleep.But before i used to wake up every hour or so during the night in cold sweat :(The nightmares are still the same though... He kinda just stands there looming over me.. It's horrid... but sometimes it gets worse but i wont say anymore...




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Old 19-05-2008, 01:28 AM   #9
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You don't have to say anything you don't want to, love :) *safe cuddles* During the nightmares - have you ever tried "waking" yourself up? You could also try writing down your thoughts, then reading/doing something soothing before going to sleep? I've found this helped me to have "it" all on paper to destroy, rather than in my head to make bad dreams. Have you ever tried this?

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Old 19-05-2008, 09:04 AM   #10
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I tried writing it all down before but people in my house tend not to keep things like that because my mother used to go through my room and read stuff.And i have found no matter what i do i can't seem to make myself wake up :(And i usually read and listen to a bit of quiet music before bed anyway...
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Old 19-05-2008, 04:50 PM   #11
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Yeah, my mum used to go through my room too :\ Maybe starting a rant thread in the Ranting And Venting Forum would help? I always use mine before I go to sleep *cuddles*

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Old 26-05-2008, 07:21 PM   #12
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I would but i don't always have access to a computer every night before bed =\




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