Well here I am again, 8 weeks since I last cut, all healed and a new scar to hide, hide my shame. Things are stressed in my head/life at the moment (sick relative/work) and that's got me on edge, got a new blade last week all wrapped up and locked away, I know people say throw them out but I need to know it's there it just needs to be hard to get to.
I don't believe I'm going to cut but never say never.
A friend's getting married 2 weeks today, a happy time but thinking about seeing lots of people I don't know, people judging me, all of me, I won't fit in I know I won't but I have to go. I should be past all this Im way to old to have this insecurity.
Well thanks for letting me get this out there cos I sure as hell can't tell anyone.
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