*Positive Recovery Post* - Recovery isn't linear but its worth it.
Bear with me.
I'm gonna give this post a whirll and try to keep this as untriggering as possible so I'll be brief with my description(s).
Anyway, some will remember me, some won't.
I was very very sick for going on 15 years now. I had bulimia, then anorexia, then b/p sub type. I was hospitalised more times than I can count & given a time frame on my life on a few occasions.
I never ever thought I'd get out alive. Ever. I don't think anyone actually did. Certainly not my family who at one stage arranged my funeral with me at one point, Will and all. Yes, its was that bad but goddammit I got through it.
I am not recovered and yes I have slip ups but I have been a healthy weight for over 2 years now. I am mostly happy with my body, I eat when and what I want, I eat when I'm hungry and even when I'm not! I can sit at family gatherings and eat without fear, I can go out to eat alone, I can order a take out and sit all comfy with my cat & enjoy it.
I can live now, without fear of food and as I said, yes I have slip-ups, and yes I will always have this illness but I am so much better it's silly thinking of it.
I'll probably add to this but for now, I'll leave you with this random thing I wrote.
Please try not to lose hope, even the hopeless find the sunshine.
Ah, Helen!!!! I don't come here that often anymore, but I was having a flick through and I came across this post... I don't know if you'll remember me, but I am so genuinely pleased for you. Baby steps, and keep on keeping on.
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx