*TRIGGER WARNING* Please, Help Me.
So, where do I start? There's so much to say, It's overwhelming. I'll keep it simple because I don't think I can take anything long anymore. I'm sat at my desk right now, little to no light surrounds me; just the merely dim desk lamp and the light from the monitor that sits on the desk that I am currently sat at (as I said). The light is showing the shine of the wet substance on my desk : the blood. I have just cut for the first time in a while. I am filled with emotions; more so than before I got the urge to harm myself. Guilt, sadness and anger are taking over my body as I type and probably as you read: it's constant. My tears are also dancing along the desk dripping alongside the blood from my wrist. The cuts are the deepest they have ever been; more painful too. Although I have so many emotions running through my body I feel empty inside; dead in the eyes within an emotionless face. Tears drop down my still face. I feel the warmth of my tears against my cold, stiff cheeks. I can't see the way out of this rut that I'm in, I live with the things that trigger me. How can I possibly escape? I want to end this deep pool of pain that I drown in daily. Take me away, please. Take me away. My movements are slow, I can't think straight. I feel intoxicated, the effect of alcohol. I now realise, I'm intoxicated with misery. I'm lost. I'm lost in the dark, unable to find the light. Help me, I beg. Before It's too late. Please, help.
Last edited by hannn : 21-02-2019 at 10:34 PM.