Afraid to be honest with my care coordinator
I'm not sure if anyone will read this but here goes. I am looking for some advice and know that those of you who also use this site are understanding and less judgemental than some who have never experienced mental health illnesses.
I had a meeting with my care co-ordinator today and we rewrote my care plan. I told her that I hadn't SH'd since before Christmas and that was true, and she suggested that I text her if I wanted to do so, the problem is that her phone is turned off after 6pm. I relapsed tonight and I am so ashamed of myself and don't want to admit to myself what I did. I wondered if you were in my position if you would text your care co-ordinator and let them know that you had relapsed? I don't want her to be angry with me. I know that I will get into a dangerous cycle of secrecy if I don't tell anyone what I have done, but I also don't know if I can handle the pressure of other people wanting me to get better.