Contains sexual abuse - GYN and PTSD.

[Koriandr]

I recently was seen by my gynecologist for a possible STD,

The first time I was seen it was dismissed as nothing, the second time I was seen it was confirmed, definite STD.

I had to be treated for my STD with a "acid" of some sort to remove the growths.

Not only was the fact that I had to have my legs open and have a doctor looking at my vag traumatizing enough, but the acid burned really, really badly and it hurt so much it brought back so many memories and I found myself shaking and crying.

I never want to experience that again but my gyno said I may have to come back in two weeks to repeat the treatment.

I will die if I have to go through that again


I have no idea how I'm going to survive if I have to do that over again, I was literally sobbing when that acid started to burn and I couldn't stop shaking, it's a wonder how the gyno was able to even get the acid on.

How do people handle PTSD symptoms while at the gyno's office??

[EyelinerAndCigarettes]

I'm sorry you've been through such an awful experience sweetheart. I'm so proud of you for going though, that shows real self-care & you should be proud too!

When I had to go for my smear test, I found it helpful to disclose the fact I was raped & had the nurse talk me through everything that was going to happen & I asked her to keep talking to me during the procedure so I could keep distracted, know that what was happening to me was normal & also to ground me as I heard her voice; it stopped my mind trailing off into a flashback.

x x x