I need self harm help while pregnant.
Sorry this is going to be long I think.
I am newly pregnant. I am 22 yrs old & I have been self harming for around 11 years. I am trying to stay away from this lifestyle now that I am pregnant. But it is so hard. I’ve had depression my whole life and this is my only coping mechanism. I know I’m not alone. I have a boyfriend who is the dad and my mom and family are so close. But I don’t like bothering them.
I love my boyfriend but I’m afraid our relationship isn’t strong enough to last with a baby. Babies are honestly a really hard thing on a relationship, it takes a strong one to pull through and keep going to raise the baby. Everyone I know breaks up/gets a divorce within a few years. I don’t know why I thought I would be any different. I’m already so emotional and causing fights. And he’s not as supportive as I need him to be. He has depression that acts up occasionally also.
I just feel alone and need to talk. I’m struggling not to turn to the blade again everyday, even reminding myself I have to protect my baby is almost not enough. My doctor would not tolerate self harming having a kid. I need to recover. But it’s so hard. I’m only like 2-3 months clean. I’m so scared.
Last edited by bugg : 05-11-2018 at 05:53 AM.
Reason: Accidentally marked positive recovery post.
|