Do you think there is a way you can come to a compromise between you and the doctor? Would you feel able to have a discussion with her or with a nurse?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
She prescribed fortisip but I can't deal with that either
Staff keep coming in and offering me food and drink and I just want to scream at them
I had a shower to calm down
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I hate to be blunt here, but it sounds like if you don't start eating and drinking on your own terms, then they WILL force it. Even if it doesn't feel safe or okay, are there any types of things that feel slightly LESS not okay that you could have? This isn't a situation where you want the control taken away from you, so any decisions you can make while you are still allowed, it might be worth a shot.
If they offer you food and drink, perhaps you could at least ask what the options are instead of just saying no? Maybe once you know what there is, you could come up with something worth trying?
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You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
Its just so difficult
I know it probably sounds really stupid
But I had that cup of tea earlier and things were definitely not ok after that.
I don't think they'll be able to force me because I will not go. There is no way.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
It doesn't sound stupid, and I'm not trying to suggest it will be easy to agree to. That's why I was thinking maybe you could just ask what options there are, because that's not necessarily agreeing to having anything?
In what way were things not okay after the tea?
I guess my point is that even though eating/drinking is not okay right now, being forced to eat/drink would be worse. So in that sense, it might be LESS not okay to try to do some eating/drinking on your own.
Also, I'm unsure what you mean by you won't go, but with regards to forcing it, again I don't mean to be blunt or scare you, but they can tube you and force fluids/nutrition that way. That's not something you want.
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You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
Well so it did pass in time then, is how I would read that. I wouldn't correlate it with not having anything else. It might be something where the more regularly you can do it, the less intense and awful the voices and feeling ill gets as your body readjusts. Do you think trying again is an option?
How are you doing otherwise?
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You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
How would you feel about bottled water, and/or if (by PM/Fb/whtever) you told me the hospital address and I would swear on my dog's life it's not contaminated, if I sent you food woulds you try it?
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
