why bother?!

[Pi.R^2]

Good luck tomorrow! (Or maybe today actually, it may have been yesterday for you when you typed that!)

[one_step_closer]

Hope it goes/has gone well.

[Darkwings44]

He never showed up………….

I lost the last thing that I had worn when I was hugging the first girl that I truly loved when were in high school

The hoodie was really really important to me
It honestly feels like when I wear the hoodie that I’m hugged and comforted and loved even though she was wasn’t able to love me like I loved her
She still loved me like a best friend and that was okay with me so long as she was safe and (she was hurt by her ex boyfriend) I promised her that I would protect and love her with all of my heart and that I would always remember her……. the hoodie was my way of keeping her with me …… without the hoodie I feel like I’m lost and in a vortex of pain and darkness that I can’t get out of…………

But it’s not even me who lost it but it was the company of the dayhab because of the problems with the price to get all of our clothes back from the laundry mat!!!
I really really want to die right now!!!!!!

[not_so_insig]

I am sorry that they lost your hoody. But nothing can take away memories and the love that is in your heart which is much more important than a piece of clothing imo.

[Darkwings44]

Your right and plus I have a new puppy and if I am dead then who’s going to love him and make sure he doesn’t feel alone anymore like I would………..

[not_so_insig]

Sorry if I sounded dismissive in the last post I didn't mean to be. I am glad that you have something to live for. Does your new puppy live with you in the group home or at your mom's house?

[Darkwings44]

He is currently living with my mom until she gets the chance to give him to me

[Darkwings44]

My friends birthday was a few days ago and I tried to make a card and a picture and I gave her all of my peeps too but her other friend said that she doesn’t want them she wants money and 100$ would be enough for her birthday present but I don’t have it so I’ve made a deal with a guy who has been trying have basically sex with me since I got into the dayhab and the deal was I go out with him only if he gives me 100$ up front it’s the only way to give my friend 100$ for her birthday since one of her other friends said that she wouldn’t like any of my gifts…….. but then another person found out about the deal and then she told the staff about it and
The day of her birthday I found out that she didn’t want to be my friend anymore because I didn’t have the money for her and she also trew my gifts away so now in order to stop my friend from hateing me I have to sell myself online I’m sorry if I broke any rules but
But I don’t know how to get the money otherwise
My whole life I wanted to feel what it felt like to be liked and loved so I want to at least be able to be liked if not loved but if not and if nothing else I want to know that I have tried my hardest and that I’ve done everything possible to be able to be liked and loved by people………. when someone is wanting me to give them 100$ for their birthday I will try my hardest to get them it even if I have to sell myself to get them the money

[not_so_insig]

If they're truly your friend they would appreciate your efforts into making something for them. People shouldnt care if you spend 10 dollars or 100 dollars as not everyone is rich. It's the time and effort that you put in often means more. Your other friend was wrong to suggest that you should spend a load of money.

[Iamcatbug]

Apologies if this is blunt, but honestly I am glad that someone told the staff, they are protecting you from a dangerous situation.

You do not have to sell yourself to make friends. Please don't do that. I think you honestly have to think about this friendship as it sounds like they are using you.