Hey Tea , Welcome to the thread . I'm Mark :) I'm not sure what you mean by 'inward presentation' but I think inwardly all the time . BPD is hard to deal with , I hope you find us Usefull and Friendly :)
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Hello, I just got the actual confirmation that I'm BP yesterday from my psychiatrist. Apparently it's been on my notes for a good while now but they didn't think to tell me. Been waiting 18 months for STEPPS and apparently it looks like I 'got lost in the paperwork'
I've found the mental health care in Highlands, Scotland, sorely lacking in any consistency. Given that I was detained when I was 11 and am having problems at 34 you think they would be a bit more helpful.
Sorry I haven't posted here in a while. Anyway, having a hard time with flashbacks to when I was in jail. Could somebody pm me with tips on how to deal with this? (Pm because I hardly check this thread)
The action plan for me is to ditch Quetiapine. Tapering down from 150mg a day and so far am at 75mg so will sit at that for a week and then cut down further until I'm clean of it. That will just have me on fluoxetine and the occasional diazepam for panics and very occasional zopiclone for insomnia. I have 2.5mg Dexedrine which again is very occasional for my pathetic social skills and when work is full on. Now my whole immediate family know it looks like I'm in for the 'talk' this weekend... I don't know how I feel about it myself so I have no clue what's expected of me from them. I get that they want to support and help but I need to focus on getting off the Quetiapine first and trying to get rid of that brain fog.
I'm feeling really Alone at the minute, not coping well, and trying to be even remotely rational feels impossible, I'm struggling with new forms of harming myself, through illicit drug use, I can't seem to get my mind to a stable point, I'm so on the edge of rocky, that I've even emailed the Samaritans in desperation, not knowing what else to do, or where else to turn, life feels impossible, I feel like hanging myself, but instead I turn to drugs that I know are dangerous, but I thought I was over all that, and now I feel like I'm trapped, like it's always going to be like this, like I'm never going to be better :'(
Hi I'm sorry to gate crash as I don't have BPD but I am being referred to the Cawley Centre as they deal with trauma. Does anyone have experience of the Cawley ?
Hi Jessie, I'd never heard of the Cawley, but hardly surprising considering I live in South Wales, as do several others who often post here, I really hoped someone would be able to give you a better idea of the service there, and what it's like, from a google search, I'm getting very mixed results, I hope you're assessment goes well, and the service is able to help you.
It seems like the Cawley have a very strict confidentiality and anonymity policy, so I didn't really find out anything about the assessment process, maybe someone else here will be able to tell you about that, but there are details about their treatment approaches, if you google you'll see a mix of good and bad, but I think it's important at this stage that you decide for yourself, and make up your own mind about the service
Sorry I couldn't be more helpful, I just wanted you to know that I have read your post *hugs* good luck
I'm feeling Angry and Aggressive at the minute, my dad has just been making unreasonable demands, started trying to argue, he just turned up drunk, I really hate him when he's drunk, I can't wait to go to bed, I think he's gone now, nope I spoke too soon, now he's moaning about TV, I really need to get to bed, this isn't funny, I'm really stressed and having to be the adult yet again, I've just asked him to leave, so hopefully I can get to bed