Urges to run!

[Cacoethes]

Hey guys
Sorry to make a thread but I'm currently in the general hospital and I have no one from psych escorting me due to what I assume is a communication error.
I am getting major urges to run away.
I doubt anyone would notice for a while
I have money and clothes and stuff.
Kind of just need some support to not do it because I know it's a bad idea but I want to just disappear and not be in hospital for a while

[[Luna]]

Beckie, please don’t run. It will only make things harder in the long run and you will get caught.
Can you do something to distract yourself?

[Cacoethes]

Thanks for replying Luna

I know you're right
It's just so hard!
There's nothing really here to distract me
I'm playing games on my phone and stuff but my charger doesn't reach me so can't be with my phone all the time

[one_step_closer]

I hope someone is with you by now. Please don't run away, you'll only end up back in hospital probably under stricter conditions and may end up in for longer than you would have if you had stayed. Can you let a general nurse know?

[Cacoethes]

No one is with me still!
Apparently I should be going back today but it depends on some test results.
It's making me feel more like running because I don't want to miss my opportunity!
But you are right.
Just so frustrated with being in hospitals and want my freedom back

[one_step_closer]

I can understand your frustration but I'm sure you know that it will only make things worse if you try to run, please keep reminding yourself of that. If you stay you can get things sorted quicker and get back home and back to seeing Jasmine in a better environment. You can get through this.

[Cacoethes]

Thanks lindsay
You're right
Seems like nothing is getting sorted in hospital though

[one_step_closer]

It might take some time, and I know that is really annoying. I believe things can get sorted for you, they have in the past.

[Cacoethes]

That is true
The doctor asked me to consider ECT again so I might try that

[one_step_closer]

That does sound like something to think about and discuss. I totally 100% have faith in you. You will get through this and I hope that when you're home you can make a future that you want for yourself. What are you occupying yourself with? Do you know how much longer your treatment on the general ward will be for?

[Cacoethes]

Thank you <3

I'm not really doing much to occupy myself. There isn't really a lot to do.

Apparently I need more vitamin K but that can be taken orally now.
I think whether I can be discharged or not depends on my ECG results which the doctor has just walked off with
The ward just rang me
They are aware that no one has been with me all day but don't seem too concerned

[one_step_closer]

Can you ask for paper and a pen and maybe do one of those how many words can you make from this word/phrase thing, or write what you want to say to the doctor, or play some other kind of paper based game?

I hope you can get back to the ward soon. Although it is concerning that they aren't too bothered about leaving you without support!

[Cacoethes]

That's a good idea

I think I'm going soon, just waiting for meds apparently

I am surprised they were ok with it considering I'm on 1-1 back on the ward!
But I guess because it's for physical health reasons they figured I'd be ok on a physical health ward.
Even though I'm still on section so should technically be escorted

[one_step_closer]

Good stuff, hopefully they won't be too long then.

Will someone be taking you back to the ward?

[Cacoethes]

Yep!

I assume so but not sure
When I spoke to them earlier they said the ward would call when I'm ready to be discharged but I think I might call them anyway.
I don't trust the communication skills of these people!

[one_step_closer]

I just wanted to say well done with fighting the urges, you definitely did the right thing even though at times it might not feel like it. Keep moving forward. <3

[Cacoethes]

Thank you lindsay <3

[Auror.]

I know it sucks, but I agree you did the right thing by going back. Even if you can't think about it being best for yourself to be in hospital right now, does it help to think of how worried and scared your mum and Jasmine would have been if you ran away, and/or of how much extra work and liability that would have been for staff in both wards/hospitals? It wouldn't have just gotten you into trouble and in an unsafe situation. It would have put a lot of other folks in a bad situation too.

I hope things improve for you soon. Thinking of you.

[Cacoethes]

Thanks Camden

You are right
I wouldn't want to worry my mum and Jasmine
And wouldn't want to get anyone else into trouble

[Darkwings44]

I agree with auror sorry I don’t know what to say