feeling uneasy, work situation and mental health
I haven't been on here in a long time (a few years) so had to create a new user, things feel odd, i was discharged from mental health services almost two years after being under them since i was 14 and I'm now 23. I working in mental health as well but have started to notice my mind becoming more and more chaotic. My medical records were found in an office where i work (my old CPN had left them there) and since then all these memories have been coming back and I reluctantly agreed to go back to where they were found them after resigning because they were shorted staffed, then found out there was no incident form raised about it left again but was persuaded to go as the groups wouldn't have been able to run.
I have applied for another job but will feel guilty as i'm meant to be helping run groups that start in Jan if i then get the job and leave and I don't know how I will approach the conversation. It keeps feeling as though everyone i moving on with their lives, having children, getting married and moving out of home and i'm still stuck in the same situation, the only difference is i'm not in hospital and appear to be 'functioning'.
I think my biological dad contacting me and then not responding and just 'dropping' me has triggered some stuff off again on top of the notes but i should be able to handle it by now.
Sorry i don't know what to do or how to change things, i think if i get the new job then it will give me some kind of distance from my past however the guilt for leaving again will make me feel bad and unreliable.
thanks for reading this,
Happy new year
Last edited by PurpleRose123 : 30-12-2017 at 10:22 PM.
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