Wishing you had a physical INSTEAD OF a mental illness?
Does anyone here wish they had a physical illness instead of mental health problems? Not in a self-harm "I wish I was sick" way, but in an "at least I'd get some help, and wouldn't be blamed for my illness" sense. I have autism and chronic insomnia and, mostly due to (ableist and homophobic) school bullying, did have depression and derealisation disorder in the past, which led to self-harming behaviours. This led to further abuse from adult 'caregivers' who implied that I could "snap out" of those illnesses, and that I was "bringing it on myself". Although I'd rather not be sick at all, I used to wish that, if I had to be, then I'd prefer a physical illness like epilepsy (which my sister - otherwise normal - suffers from). At least then no one would've yelled at me for being ill, nor discouraged other children from befriending me, or any of the other ableist abuse I got.
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