why cant i crumble? "may trigger"
Sighs, i am still trying to wonder why today has been like, so bad at the moment for me. I dont know if its because of teasing that i got at school, or if its because of the way that i have been feeling today at all.
I feel like that i am under so much preesure at the moment to lift up grades and study alot more but yet at the same time, i just feel like crumbling into many little pieces. I just feel that because of all the preesure that i am under, i cannot "break or cry", if that makes any sense.
I feel so isolated aswell because i just feel that i cant talk to anyone about the way that i am feeling because i have to much schoolwork on or that i just cant verbally say how i am feeling because of what there reaction would be or that i just dont know what the words are that i could say.
sorry that this is just so ranty. needed itbut also need support cause im finding it hard not to cope without self harm but yet at the same time i know that people will hate me etc cause they just dont understand how i am feeling.
Hannah
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