I have a dr appointment on Thurs morning, Made it when I was feeling really down. I still am but I physcially have nothing to show I am feeling down.
signs/symptons I am getting
Fast heartbeat
Headaches
Paranoia
Not sleeping
Not eating properly
Making myself sick after eating big meals
Also getting alot of pain especially at nighttime
But last time my doctor told me I was doing better and I didnt need help just counselling, Seeing my new counsellor tomorrow(Do I mention the above to her and see what she says? and see if she can have a word with my dr before I see her on thurs)
Also having alot of suicidal thoughts recently and wanting to end it all and hating everyone.I nearly broke my hand in the week punching a wall and I am also starting to bite my hands/arms quite badly so they bruise aswell.
I think writing it down is a good idea because often when people get in to a GP appointment, if there is more than one thing, something gets forgotten.
I knew I should of cancelled my dr appointment, I am no longer going to bother with them ANYMORE! I am going to cancel all my counsellor appointments aswell because If they cant be bothered helping me then I cant be bothered going to the appointments. I will just suffer in silence and deal with things myself and in my own way. Being told I am the sort of person to depend on stuff and be the sort to get addicted to drugs and alchaol and gambling hurt, Coz I dont drink and would never ever ever do drugs and she told me to take smoking up coz then I will be busy with my hands..
I went to see my DR coz Im struggling and getting really stressed and wanted some help about it. She made me feel stupid and a complete time waster and told me I am the sort of person to get addicted to drugs and gambling and alcahol and I should start smoking coz then at least my hands would have something to do. And didnt help me one bit. But my counsellor is fantastic and does want to help me and I will carry on seeing her but I refuse to actually see a doctor anymore unless I really have too coz she obviously dont want to help.
What happened at the doctor's appointment that upset you? Sometimes it's hard, even for professionals to know what the right thing to say or do is. If you feel that the GP you're seeing isn't very helpful, it might be worth trying another doctor. I changed doctors recently because my old was was awful, and new the one was lovely, and even though she couldn't really do anything helpful, the fact that she was nice made all the difference.
Take care.
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Im sure the doctor wasnt trying to suggest that you are an addict or anything. And theycwere conpletely in the wrong with the smoking thing. But some people are more prone to addictions than others, and although thats a very hard thing to admit about yourself she may be correct. I hate drugs and smoking, but i suspect i do have a tendency towards addiction. My mumsays i do and when she does it makes me feel very defensive, but nevertheless i am extremely careful, with painkillers and all kinds of things.
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