I don't know if this counts, but I went to the Mind walking group for the second time today. I felt really awkward today, but the facilitator said that I really did help out.
And, I did some cleaning. In the kitchen. Not to my flatmate's standard, I know, but I did some cleaning. No mean feat when you're feeling really low and tired.
As I say, I'm not sure if these count, but I'm trying.
yep, counts. As long as you are making an effort it generally counts :D . Well dones :D
me news: 2 nights in a row without alcohol!!! And despite feeling very rubbish and having the concentration of a goldfish I have managed to FINALLY complete my assignment (as in the one I've been woeing about and procrastinating from and been unable to focus on/understand for over a week)
As for me, today I'd set two goals, both of which involved interacting with new people, which tends to make me anxious. But I decided to be brave and ignore that, and guess what? I survived. It was a bit awkward, but nowhere near as horrible as my mind was trying to tell me it would be. So, yes, happy with that effort for today.
Edit: And also, although this may seem trivial, I answered the phone today! Talking on the phone also makes me anxious, and I've still not got up the nerve to call people yet, but instead of ignoring the phone when it rang (like I tend to do), I answered it - and realised that it was actually quite fine. :D
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oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
As for me, today I'd set two goals, both of which involved interacting with new people, which tends to make me anxious. But I decided to be brave and ignore that, and guess what? I survived. It was a bit awkward, but nowhere near as horrible as my mind was trying to tell me it would be. So, yes, happy with that effort for today.
Edit: And also, although this may seem trivial, I answered the phone today! Talking on the phone also makes me anxious, and I've still not got up the nerve to call people yet, but instead of ignoring the phone when it rang (like I tend to do), I answered it - and realised that it was actually quite fine. :D
YAY! I find phones hard too, it's great when you manage to do something you find hard and end up wondering what it was that you were worried about :)
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Originally Posted by TheState
One month free of purging (bar one slip-up).
WELL DONE :D
I don't have a biggy today. But I went to the abuse charity place that I emailed the other day, and I was all open and honest, and I have been intived to join their "coffee mornings" from monday onward. Also the woman is going o look into referring me to a place that deals with dissociation and introduce me to someone who goes to a specialist dissociation place on Monday when I go to the coffee morning (also they have DID so that could be interesting) and hopefully look into funding so that I can also go there. So all in all making contact and going there seems to have paid off
I actually read this thread every day and seem to just lack motivation to actually answer! You all make me smile every day though :)
Jenna, well done on two weeks free of SH! AND throwing out the non-legit clothes :) Also, Jenna and Jodie, well done on nomming, none of the behaviours, and the throwing out of said chemical - you're both on fire!
Sketchy, I'm really glad you went out (and had fun!) even when you didn't feel like it, well done!
Claire-Rose, well done on getting through that bad day and keeping going, AND on dealing with all the anxiety about said meet up!
Wakeful Dreamer, well done for letting yourself cry - you're right, it's much better than harming, and is an excellent way of getting feelings out! Also well done on accomplishing your goals and answering the phone!
Hazel, well done for sending the e-mail to the groups place and being honest with them (and it did pay off!!), but also for going to see your GP, staying strong although you were upset, being honest with the crisis team, staying sober, AND finishing your assignment. I know you're having a really rough time at the moment, and all this just goes to show how strong you really are, despite all your doubts.
Kia, well done for trying lovely <3 taking all these trains and meeting up with your dad sounds stressful, so well done for that!
Marie, I don't even really know you, but just your posts in here show me how much of a hero you are. Well done for ALL the things, you're doing pretty amazingly, especially considering how much you said you want to give up.
Emma, well done on your week free of SH and two weeks of no laxatives! I know everything is so difficult right now and you just feel like giving up, but that's what bravery is about - keeping going even when things seem insurmountable.
Katie, all that definitely counts :) Well done on going to the Mind walking group, and I would listen to said facilitator! Also well done on doing some cleaning - I know things are difficult with your flatmate, but hopefully when she comes back she'll realise you did make an effort. Trying is the only thing you can do, so well done :)
Lana, huge well done on being one month free of purging!!!
In Ailsa news, I seem to be surviving without doing anything stupid, which I suppose isn't particularly heroic, but it certainly feels difficult :/
"And sometimes when our fights begin,
I think I'll let the Dragons win...
And then I think perhaps I won't,
Because they're Dragons, and I don't."
Shadow Light, well done, incredibly brave and I hope it helps.
TheState, nice one, I hope you can keep up the good work.
Wakeful Dreamer, that's a brave step and I hope it continues.
Katie, that's good you got cleaning done, it's something that can often make me feel a bit better.
Jodie, I'm glad you got rid of the chemical and I'm aware of how incredibly difficult this must have been.
Well done everyone.:pompom:
Today I was tempted to hide away and wallow, but I forced myself to sit in the back garden with my paints and canvas. :paint: It's a communal garden and I'm a private worker so I'm surprised at myself. It was difficult but I think it may have slightly lifted my mood.
Ailsa, Surviving without stupidity (:P) deserves great big shiny hero points for you.
And Sketchy (I'm sorry, have I known your name and forgottern? I just don't know!) Well done for doingsomething lovely and creative, especially as it meant working where there were others.
Same story as always: Nothing majorly heroic for me. Although I am struggling on, despite my anxities around the public, and men in particular, are worsening recently.
And yet, by heaven, I think my love as rare,
As any she belied with false compare.
Sorry you are struggling, but you say you are struggling on which perhaps suggest trying to deal with it? My name is Lorraine. TBH I've had a tough time mentioning my name on the boards. I'm paranoid about being recognised even though no one I know would know of these boards.
Ailsa- Well done on making it through without engaging in recklessness. That takes great courage.
Claire-Rose- sorry you're having a rough time. Sending you lots of love!
Hazel- Congratulations on two nights in a row sober, that's great! And well done for completely your assignment! ALSO, well done for going to the charity, I'm so glad your bravery paid off and that it was really useful.
Lanabanana- Congratulations on one month free!!!
Lorraine [do tell me if you want me to stop using your name at any point!]- it's fantastic that you managed to engage in creativity to try to liften your mood, well done!
Wakeful Dreamer [do you have a name?] Good show on being brave and achieving your goals, and for answering the phone
I've let my girlfriend cook for me two days in a row, even though I am struggling with all of the food-fliddy thoughts.
I think it's been about three weeks since I last self harmed.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
to everyone in this thread. You're all brilliant.
