So I no longer have to lie to the ones I love.
So I never feel the guilt again.
So he can be proud of me.
Let me be the one you call
If you jump i'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn YOU'RE NOT ALONE
This is an amazing thread! It was really what i needed to read right now!!!!
**to see who i am without it** very nice!
*myself
*to be a good role model for my god daughter
*because i want to be able to say "i survived"
*i am worth it
*because its the only body i have and no one is going to take care of it besides me, and it deserves much better
*i dont need scars to remind me of my past every day
*i am more than "a cutter"
*be the success story
*the completly white recovery bracelet
*for the celebration dinner on my one year mark with my close family who has supported me through this horrible nightmare way too long... its about time we have that dinner!!!!!!!
wow this thread is really inspirational. i definitely needed this tonight.
*i want to find out who i really am
*i can't exactly be a great youth minister and help others through this same thing if i go home and cut every night
*i don't want to keep lying to the ones i love
*i'm tired of being a burden to those who are trying to help me
*i'm scared i'll just keep getting deeper
*i don't want to be just a cutter i want to be a survivor too
*i want to be an inspiration to others
*i want to share my own survivor's story rather than have someone else deliver my eulogy
*i want to have a family some day
*i'm really more graceful then people think
*i want to experience love the way it was meant to be without the lying and explaining and worrying and distrust
*i want to be able to feel without the blade
this was a real eye-opener. i have a lot more reasons then i thought.
So I can wear short sleeves in the summer
So I can stretch in school without worrying about my jumper sleeves riding up
Because I hate how cutting consumes every single thought I have
So I can reward myself when it gets to one year free
Because I want to take a hot shower that doesn't sting
Because I don't want it to hurt when someone hugs me
So people can believe me when I say that I'm happy, and so that I can believe myself.
Tonight I'm alive just to say I love you to death.
I really wish I had found this threat 2 days ago. I was looking for something like this. Better late than never.
My personal reasons.
-I don't want to hurt anyone around me.
-I don't want to lie about it anymore.
-To hold a tool and not crave to use it.
-To be a better role model for my students.
-To not feel judged for it.
-To not worry about being caught.
-To be able to say nothing and mean it when I am asked what's wrong?
- TO be able to wear what I want
- Not letting my best friend down
- To be able to say that SI didn't beat me but that I beat it
- To be an example to my friends that cut, that it is possible to recover
- Not being petrified of leaving my house incase I left a drawer unlocked
Wow more reasons than I thought!
This is a great idea for a thread!
~Here I am at your feet in my brokenness complete~
-to stop the damn itching!!!!
-so i can not have to think about what to wear in summer
but mainly because i canntot stand the look og mngled pity and confusion on the faces of the very few people wh know. The pitty is horrible, but i hate how i cant explain to them, and i hate to see them hurt, because the dont know what to do and how to act.....I'd love to be able to say it's a thing of the past.............hopefully one day i will be able to do that.
Don't loose your passion, or the fighter thats inside of you.
Let this battle commence. One last time....
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- So I can wear T-shirts without worrying.
- So I can answer honestly yes when someone asks how I feel.
- So my niece, and nephew when he's born, can look up to me, and not have an SI'ing aunt.
- So I can trust myself shaving again.
- So I can reach two years free!
- To stop the guilt.
your heart is a muscle the size of your fist
keep on loving, keep on fighting
and hold on, and hold on, hold on for your life
Because I want to show off the body Im much happier with than I used to be, and not have to worry about covering up fresh cuts
Sarah: Give me the child.
Jareth: Sarah beware. I have been generous up till now. I can be cruel.
Sarah: Generous? What have you done that's generous?
Jareth: Everything! Everything you have wanted I have done. You asked the child be taken, I took him. You cowered before me, I was frightening. I have reordered time. I have turned the world upside down, and I have done it all for you! I am exhausted from living up to your expectations of me. Isn't that generous?
- Not having to lie to my boyfriend, or feel guilty that he spends all of his time helping me to feel better
- Not having to worry so much when my sleeve falls back
- Being able to join in in P.E at school, without having my arms folded for the whole lesson
- To be able to look at myself and be cut-free
- To feel the achievement of going a few weeks without it, and seeing the happiness and relief in my boyfriend's face
- To be able to look at somebody, smile and reply 'I feel fantastic' when they ask how I am.
- Not having to worry whether I should have stitches or not
- So I can spend time with my family in short-sleeved clothes
- So I can feel beautiful
I hope these apply to other people, too.
<3
Happiness is a form of courage
~ Holbrook Jackson
''Although the scars of yesterday remain, you can go on living as much as your heart believes. You can't be born again, although you can change.''
so am not the "screwed up girl who cuts" anymore
so i can be a better person
so i can get a fresh start
so i can wear a bathing suit on my grad trip
so i can love myself
"They say time heals all wounds. I don't agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessons, but it is never gone." - Rose Kennedy
