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27-04-2009, 11:54 PM
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lost the war against myself
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Triggering (SI/Abuse) - school abuse . stories
I used to get bullied alot in school and that was from kinder all the way to 8th. i hated waking up to school cuz i'd get picked on for no apparent reason at all. my stuff would get stolen, my school supplies dumped in the toliet, and my hair being cut off. I didn't tell on any of them. because what is the point? everyone thought private school kids were good and holy and didn't do any of the things they did to me. This was in kinder through 6th. In seventh grade the bullying got worse. A girl who was my friend started calling me a faggot everytime she would see me. I would get called ugly and tiny and zero tits. They called me a guy.. cuz i liked wearing my hair short. I also got beat up by the same girl. she through a basket ball at my face and broke my glasses and chipped my tooth while laughing at my face and telling everyone it was an accident and then calling me a miserable homo. By the end of seventh grade I felt so lost and hopless and i started hurting myself. writing faggot and ugly down my arms. i wasn't emo. and i never wanted to be. but for some reason they went on labeling me emo because of what THEY made me do. I never understood why they picked on me so much.. never understood why kids looked at me so different. I was the same as them had the same feelings. I was never as wealthy as most of them.. but i really didn't care about that. ..Now that i've left that school and gone to a public school i feel more relieved. I don't think there is as much bullying even though i have seen some. when i do see bullying i tend to get in trouble because i'm always sticking up for those like me who are picked on...
I just heard about an eleven year old boy. a precious eleven year old who committed suicide because he couldn't take the bullying at his school and I just wanted to know your stories. i know many can be upsetting but we can help each other out.
and too all of you who have stories ..
bless you.
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28-04-2009, 12:06 AM
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Join Date: Apr 2009
Location: merseyside :(
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i had a similar experence at school although due to the bully's i ended up in a+e several times, it was mainly verbal and is the main reason for my cutting and sui attepts..
i was also labelled an emo even though i obviously wasnt it was jus cause i hurt myself which is wat they made me do,
the extent of the bullying got so bad an i ended up with the school reluctantly sending me to an inclusion unit.. i wont go into details due to the extent of it all, and it all of this bullying took place in front of the teachers and other staff and nothing was done about it,
i do no the reason i was bullied and its due to me having a heart shaped birthmark under my chin! some people are so perfetic...
ive also heard of many children under the age of 12 commiting suicide due to bullying at school and its awful there shud be more support out there within schools for victuims of bullying so it doesnt get to this stage unfortunalty there isnt
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28-04-2009, 02:43 AM
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lost the war against myself
Join Date: Feb 2008
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i agree with you about the support in schools.
and thank you for sharing.
and your not alone.
goddess bless you.
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It can't rain all the time.
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28-04-2009, 04:37 PM
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Join Date: Mar 2009
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I was bullied by different people for different reasons from Primary School till Year 11 at Secondary School.
When I first joined secondary school I chose to hang around with boys as I got a long with them better. But as they matured the talks between us became more male orientated so I decided to find some friends who were girls. I first tried to hang round with a friend from Primary School but I couldnt stand the constant chat of make up and guys. The girl I sat next to in form asked if I wanted to hang out with her. All of them were into Jackass which I loved and we were often really violent to each other. But the small group were not taken to easily. We were easy targets for bullying. I actually found out my sister was being bullied when I was in year 10 and I had never taken action against my bullying but she was younger than me so I decided to take action on hers. It probably doesnt make me any better than the bullies but one day me and a friend noticed the main culprit bully and I got my friend to pretend to push me so I could fall into her hard. My friend lightly tapped me and I threw myself at the girl and she fell down the stairs, she had a cast on for a while. Violence shouldnt have been the way to stop it but she stopped. My sisters bullies tried to turn on me by punching me in the head in front of loads of people but I pretty much sorted them out in my own way.
With my bullies however it only stopped because they didnt come back to sixth form. My bullies were in my year and picked on me due to the most stupid reason. My auntie had started dated one of my friends dads, so she went from friend to enemy and she had quite a large crowd.It was apparently my fault my auntie had picked this man. My friend was hardly even in school so I would be told I was fat in PE lessons and all sorts. The fact is I wasnt fat at all and the main bully was pretty obese, I was extremely healthy so I saw it as very ironic at what you said. Id get pushed around and verbally abused at any cost. Food was thrown at me and they would often threaten to beat me, and "meet me outside of school" which I did actually wait often but they never turnt up. I wont blame bullying solely on my self harm but it was quite a contributing factor. When I see the bullies around my area they still hurl abuse at me, but I know in life I am doing so a lot better than them. I didnt fail my education for starters.
Id like there to be more done in bullying cases. I think if a previous bully victim was to become like a counsellor for the school it could really help. Lots of children dont like "telling" as they fear it can get worst. But if they could at least vent it. It could be really helpful to them.
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Count the garden by the flowers, never by the leaves that fall. Count your life with smiles and not the tears that roll.
ily silvermist - long-lost twin !
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28-04-2009, 05:17 PM
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He was no dragon. Fire cannot kill a dragon
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I was bullied all through school... never got called an "emo" though...
at primary school (it was a catholic school) I was bullied for not being a christian...
at secondary school a gang used to beet me up o the bus...
and then I developed some keloids on my ears from getting them periced (they were the size of golf balls) and people at school used to tell me it was cancer and I was going to die... and I sarted to believe them... took 3 opperatios, 2 courses of steroids and 2 doses of radiotherapy to get rid of them...
then at sixth form it continued, so I left...
at college I hung about with the goths... so not so much bullying... more goth/chav warfare... used to get locked in toilets, and attacked and stuff... but the bullying stopped as bullies feared the goths...
also... I did "tell" both the schools and my parents... but all that happened is that the bullies "got revenge"... though allthe teachers dd was put me and them in a room together and told them to "stop it"... nothing more was done...
I also tried the whole ignoring them thing... but they just got worse and worse and worse until I reacted...
I think that part of the problem is that people don't take the problem of bullying seriously enough...
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28-04-2009, 06:23 PM
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3 words SCHOOL WAS HELL!!!!
from ages of 7-16 i was subjected to bullying now I thought ages 7-11 was bad but as soon as I hit secondry school that was it.
I had an on/off friend Emily when being a friend was the nicest girl possible when off friends she was hell to put up with. I had verbal attacks from her everyday vicous rummours spread around about me.
If it weren't Emily It was Ben A lad in my form who made everything emily did 10x worst it depended what mood he was in whether he'd do something. I got spat at when coming up the stairs to form room name called kicked hit chairs thrown into me tables thrown into me. I'm a bigger gal and he'd purposly sit be hind me and give me the tinyiest space from his table to my table to try and fit into and wouldn't let me push his table back. I could cope with name calling ish but tables and chairs thrown into me I hated it. He'd throw a table into me call me a fat **** then another table would come my way. If the chairs were still on the tbales he'd forcfully know them my way. If he saw me coming up the stairs he'd spit at me.
I tried to tell people numerous times but it made jack **** bit of difference.
All I have to say is that even though he forced me nearly enough to go into school part time he did not wreck my education 3Bs 3Cs 2Ds
I once was in a foul mood and he just kept on picking i went into one of my funny turns and literally screamed at him pinned him against the wall screamed in his face how much he was hurting me. then ran out the room and bawled my eyes out
I went toilet once when I came back i found my pencil case out the window with a broken protractor i had only bought that day for an exam. He's hurt me sooo much mentally and it don't stop there i wrote him a letter from facebook and lets say the reply i got just told me to give up. I hate people like him so so so so much. He's wrecked who I used to be.
Last edited by Little-butterfly : 28-04-2009 at 06:29 PM.
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28-04-2009, 06:49 PM
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I actually have just sent this to him on facebook
Hey you probs wont read this but at least it gets everything out what i want to say to you.
Why was is you got great pleasure out of making my life hell?
Why the hell did you make me want to start cutting/killing myself?
You threw tables and chairs into me. You kicked me legs. You laughed at me. All the stuff you did has really built up inside of me.
The time you tried to smash my windows in. What was the point in that? I knew it was you right from beginning.
You know what you and your petty mates have made me scared stiff to go out. I hate it now. Takes me 30 mins just to get the motivation.
What was the point in all the **** you gave me? pushing tables into my back. Taking stuff. You know what I;m now scared college will be the same bloody thing. That is how you've made me become.
Your one of the main people I tried to end my life because. You know why I was sick of living for all i would get is comment after comment.
I'm not accepting appologies as i will NEVER forgive an I'll NEVER forget.
In primary school I was such a bubbly kid. I loved being in school. Never faked being ILL i loved that place.
Woodlands was hell because of you and a few people. You said i got special treatment. ERR Why you think i got that for? I was scared to go school. I was cutting quite a considderable amount. I hated everything about me.
Guess what Ben You haven't won. I'm still here my heart is still beating. I'm still living. Need help but hey least you have not ****ed my education up. I'm now going to get a brilliant job with the people i love most.
I'm now rebuilding my life my new start Starting from September. You know what I'll be a damn sight better off than you will EVER BE. You might have wanted to **** your own education up. Making people want to kill themselves. But i'm the winner. I will be strong.
Good luck with just being a lay about
Good luck when you land yourself in a police cell.
You know what i'm so glad i've written this letter. Call it my goodbye present.
the letter i wrote nearly a year ago back to ben
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