Why can't I stop thinking about where they go to?

[Cpt_Stunning]

I've been to a few funerals over the last few years, it is strange when you've known someone for years, & then they're not around anymore.

The most notable one's were of a guy who I'd known since 4-years-old, from school we used to play golf & snooker together, & a woman from work who I knew very well for many years, used to go out for dinner together, they both were 38-years-old. Both died of cancer.

I still have dreams that they're still around, but I can't stop thinking about where did they go to? & why am I still here mostly tbh, when I'm suffering mentally, & they both were positive thinkers with a lot to look forward too, especially Hannah the woman from work. Doesn't make sense.

[one_step_closer]

Death throws up a lot of questions that often can't be answered. I think that it's natural to have all of those things going round in your head but you seem to ruminate on them quite a lot and for long periods of time. Is it important for you to have answers to your questions or do you think you could accept that maybe you won't know?

[Cpt_Stunning]

It's just that people around me seem to move on quite quickly when someone close dies, maybe it's the worry that I'm the one that's going to be next, especially going to funerals of people younger than me.

[Cpt_Stunning]

I do think it's difficult for me to accept that I don't what will happen after I die, but I haven't been thinking about it very much now. I've been feeling OK recently & enjoying life, looking forward to Christmas, & probably booking a trip to France after the new year.

It just got to me that the 2 people I mentioned had facebook profiles mentioning things that they were looking forward to like me, then they got cancer & died. Sad & unfair.

[Sketchy]

It is very sad about your friends, but it’s also important you have things to look forward to. I’m really glad you’ve been enjoying life, and I hope you continue to do so.

Have you spoken to someone about this? It might be good to talk it through, since it’s distressing you.

[Cpt_Stunning]

My parents are helping to arrange support. They've been great.

[Sketchy]

That’s brilliant your parents are helping you. I hope you get the support you need.