Your I'm currently being "hyper" plus no sleep and not tired should be a warning sign of potential elevation in your mood, it might be worth keeping an eye out for other warning signs or ask someone close to you to do so.
I hope the occy health goes/has gone ok.
I was just wondering whether you monitored your mood? As a casual observer it seems that once your mood has returned to normal you almost forget how you were a few days/weeks earlier. If you had a chart or similar of how your mood was the previous week etc it might help you. Also might help you with working towards discharge if you can say look my mood has been fine for X weeks or my mood did this and I coped or whenever my mood reaches this level I struggle and end up in A&E how can I help myself a few days before mood reaches a level at which I struggle..
Don't know what to say Beckie, but I think you need to talk to your CPN about getting something to help you sleep, you can't keep going like this, it won't end well. Thinking of you x
I just called my CPN and she said I sound excitable! haha!
I suppose I kind of do, was just rambling on at her about nothing (did get the important stuff said though!)
I asked her for pills because I haven't slept and still not tired and I don't really mind, I kind of like it but it's not really normal I suppose!
She said get a GP appointment because it would be quicker than seeing a doc at the CMHT. But I won't be able to get an appointment now! They've stopped the emergency appointment thingy.
Thank you :) It was fine, but she wants a letter from my consultant
I know my MH teams opinion on me working soooo that's probably not going to go well but I told my CPN and she said we'll talk about it at my psych appointment on Monday and I'm seeing her on Thursday anyway.
I haven't ever done that, it probably would be worth doing!
I'll give it a go!!
It feels like my body is in fast forward mode! Even my heart rate is through the roof! Literally internally fast forwarding!!!
EDIT: Posted at the same time Ally! I did speak to my CPN, need to try and get GP appointment. Not likely!!
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I am pretty sure you can get an app for mood monitoring if you have a smartphone.
I think it is important that you are recognising that you are sped up today/possibly hypomanic. Can you plan a relaxing and quiet day and avoid stimulating yourself too much?
Hope you're able to get an appointment, can you explain that it's important or just a quick one? (Don't know how the NHS works so I could be totally off). You need to try and slow down. Like thumbelina (Sarah?) said, can you plan a quiet day? Are you avoiding caffeine etc?
I'm trying to chill out and watch kids tv because I like kids tv! Although I get really 'in my day we had waaay better programmes' :P
I feel so old! Most people think I look about 30 and I'm 22! Sad times!
The appointments line at my GP doesn't open again until 2 apparently! I think the system now is that you call up at the end of the day if there are no appointments left and then you get called by a doctor and they decide whether you need to come in or not!!!
It's weird because my CPN said that a doctor there can't prescribe me stuff unless they see me and they are busy but I've been prescribed stuff before without them seeing me and my mum has even gone to pick it up for me!!
I kind of need to explain that I can't have diazepam, lorazepam, zopiclone or zolpidem because they either make me hyper or make me hallucinate!!! And I've built up a tolerance to promethazine so it doens't touch me unless I take over the recommended max dose which only one nurse has ever let me do which sucks!!!
Anyway....rambling! :P
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I had clonazepam once but was prescribed it when I attended a random a&e when staying with friends because I was mental, I've asked for it here before, but they don't like prescribing it I think because it's a controlled drug and a pain in the arse to get sorted! They just give me either diazpeam (makes me hyper) lorazepam (makes me hallucinate) and promethazine (does fuck all!)
And I do tell them but they ALWAYS say 'just try it; it might work this time!'
Every.damn.time!!!
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Not yet! Saw him for the first time 3 months ago because my old psych is on maternity leave and only saw him really briefly because the CMHT was without a psych for months so he had a shit load of catching up to do so he had to rush off, it was a short appointment!!!
I don't trust him with meds either, he didn't know that lamotrigine could help with moods, even though it's other licensed use other than epilepsy is bipolar!!! Pfffft!
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I have an awesome mood tracker app on my iPhone called mood panda. You should look into it. Best of luck with getting something to help you sleep.
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I know Ames! Silly doctor :P
I don't really mind anyway because he's fit!!!
I don't know what would help. Skydiving? Parasailing? Holiday?! Basically, everything that I can't do because I'm broke and have epilepsy!!!
Just something!!
Gonna call up the GP at 2pm probably after 2 actually because they are always sooo busy with calls when they open it's impossible to get through and even impossibler to get an appointment!!!
Thank you :D
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I hope you manage to get an appointment and something to help you sleep.
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♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
Sorry you weren't able to get an appointment. Could you try getting one for tomorrow/ASAP just so you know you have one? Or maybe even a telephone consultation and speak to your GP that way?
Fit doctors are good :P
x x x
♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
