How to maintain the balance
So I’m ‘recovered’ from anorexia and previously BED (never diagnosed) and this lockdown has me in a tailspin.
For the first 5/6 weeks I just ate junk. Take aways (why are they even open?!) chocolate, sweets, etc etc. I was just constantly grazing through the day. I don’t know if it was boredom or depression or simply a loss as to what else to do. Anyway I gained a bit of weight and now my clothes don’t really fit.
For the past week and a bit I’ve been trying really, really hard to get back on track. I’ve been following my meal plan and trying light exercise. I haven’t done any the past few days but I plan on getting out tomorrow. I had decent excuses for yesterday and the day before but today time just got away from me.
The problem I’m having is walking that fine line between healthy and restriction. There have been a couple of days where I haven’t eaten enough but for the most part I think I’m doing okay at the moment - it’s the thoughts that are getting me at the moment. It’s so tempting to skip stages. I’m eating little and often rather than 3 meals and whilst that makes it easier as I’m not putting too much in at one time it’s also kinda freaking me out because it feels like I’m just stuffing my face.
I don’t know. How do I keep this up but healthily when my brain is screaming at me to just lose the weight as fast as possible?
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