.. I've been cutting again.. It'd been MONTHS.. Now it's all down the drain. I've had some suicidal thoughts this week too, but I don't know what'll come of them. Probably nothing. So much has been going on, emotionally, and I'm on half as much of my meds now because I'm trying to conserve them, my doctor won't be back til the 12th, and I only have two days worth left.
I feel like shit most of the time.
So much crying lately... I'm so freaking lonely.. All my friends here have gone off to college, and back in Fairfield I had parties to go to all the time. I was out nearly every night, with friends. Now I never go out.
I feel detached from myself or something.
And I feel like cutting tonight. Blah.