thanks hon. not really doing so well. things were going awfully as it was but i was coping by holding onto the fact that i had my relationship, with the guy that i love. now, my relationship has gone. and i can't cope anymore.
Welcome back Helen ... I hope you enjoyed your holiday.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
I did enjoy most of my holiday. Had a few really bad blips though and nearly did a bad thing or two. But I'm home. Things are still really ****. But hey that's my life isn't it??? :( I just want my best friends to be okay more than anything :'( Oh and for my doctor to maybe CARE???
Oh & it's my nephew's birthday today. He's 14! Makes me want to cry lol. Don't want him to be that age lol, want him to stay little forever. We've pratically grown up together...
why am i so sad tonight? i had a good day. but my bf is at work tonight, wont be home till morning. that cant be why im upset though... im not dependant on him for my happiness, am i? stupid tears. go away!
i dont want to depend on him, i dont think i do, im fine! arnt i?
argh im so grumpy and tired and sad and depressed and angry and confused and so over everything!!!!
i'll just sit here on the floor, under the table by the wall, cuddling Arnie, my best friend. he may be just a teddy bear to you, but he's the world to me! the only one who's been there by my side throughout every psych admission i ever had.
:'( need a cuddle
*crying uncontrollably in the corner*
i think my problems drove one of the only 3 ppl who know what is going on with me away....how do i tell him i'm sorry without sounding desperate or like an idiot?
trying to control suicidal thoughts....but i'm afraid it's not working....
can I get some hugs? :(
im really low im out on an overnight leave at my friends i just wanna be dead. im suppose to be making progress and the first time out on signficant amount of leave i just want to be dead wats wrong with me. i cnt do nething cus she is watching my every move i know i shud be grateful i just dont want to be alive.
sorry for the rant can i cum and hide in the corner can i have a hugs please
*hugs everyone* Sorry I'm too useless right now for individual replies... Everything always seems to hit all at once. Work is bad... bad bad bad. I don't think I can handle it.. I depersonalize really easily there. And there is so much else going on... My friend always tells me that it sucks that I never catch a break... but I just figure that is normal for everything to be going to sh*t all the time. The fact that he keeps saying that tho is making me wonder...
Sorry I know... pointless post..
<3
forgiveness is the release of all hope for a better past - buddy wakefield
I'm sorry to hear that a lot of us are struggling. *special hugs to all who need to know that someone cares about them*
My mood is still low. I'm starting to see the world in monochrome. I think I'm just going to hide in here for a bit. Otherwise I think my housemate will send me up to the hospital at some point if my mood doesn't start to lift...
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
"The body faught to survive, it evacuated toxins in any way it knew how. It made clots to stop the bleeding.Bones would find the quickest ways to heal themselves. It made scar tissue. In the face of violence towards it, it would become violent. It was amazing, yet excruciating. "
*hugs everyone then goes and sits in a corner and crying because she can't cry IRL*
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
*hugs Laura* ~ I know how you feel
*hugs everyone else*
I've had a slight repreive from my mood - I've become numb. I guess it's a good thing but both me and my housemate are concerned that it's the calm before the storm ...
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
need to check in - feeling so low right now - cant get through days without crying - have been the strong one for all my mates and im drained - no time for myself no time for my family - money worries stressing me out - just wanna curl up and sleep and never wake up - cant take this any more really cant
Nothing lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
My lovely ol' cat Kizzy is keeping me company and keeping me happy.
*Brings Kizzy into the ward*
She's old and fat, but she's so loving and silly - Maybe she can curl up on some of your laps and make you all smile? :)
