Struggling. Again.

[Cacoethes]

Yeah it's fine
I've gone this long without input so I should be ok

The payment will help resolve things
Just got to be more careful

[one_step_closer]

Will you contact someone if you need to though?

Money can be hard to manage. Do you usually manage it better or have an idea of how to stay on top of things?

[Cacoethes]

I will try to

I'm usually ok with money
It's just the unexpected bills that trip me up sometimes
I've considered going back to escorting but I really don't want to. I just don't know how I'm going to afford to live for the next week

[chinahorse]

Call the cmht and ask for a food bank voucher? That should keep you going in the short term until your next payment.

In the long term seriously consider asking for help budgeting and with money. Unexpected bills are a bugger though.

[Cacoethes]

I didn't think of a food bank
I know there is one in town that doesn't require referral or anything

That's a good idea
It's always good to get a bit of extra help with these things

[Cacoethes]

Thought I might bump this rather than making a new thread

My psychiatrist has threatened to not let me go on holiday!
If I don't improve by Friday then they wont let me go
Can they really do this??
It seems very harsh!
And how could they actually stop me? I mean they can't physically stop me going to the airport and going could they?
It's very annoying!

[Pomegranate]

Unfortunately I have experience in this department . They can get police to meet you at the airport. Highly embarrassing. Of course there are ways round that but that would prob count as tip sharing . Also, another time I did get away to Belgium having been forbidden by crisis team and was swiftly hospitalised on my return. In short- I’d prob work with them ��

[Cacoethes]

Eeek I'd rather not have any of that happen!
I will work with them, I'm just worried that I won't improve in the way they want me to

[nonperson]

Very wise advice there, I think! It really sucks and I know how much you've been looking forward to your holiday but maybe try to think that your health has to come first. Your mystery city isn't going anywhere so there will always be another time for that.

Can you cancel it and get a refund if you need to? Or reschedule it? I don't know if it'd be helpful to look up that sort of stuff or not though.

[Cacoethes]

My health is fine apart from the not sleeping well and crying a lot!
Ok maybe not fine but not bad enough that I can't go on a planned holiday!

I can't cancel or reschedule without losing all the money which I really can't afford to do. My psychiatrist did ask about that.

[nonperson]

Ah I thought that might be the case. =/

Well, mental health then. But do you trust that your CC might see something that you don't though?

Other than the meds is there anything you think you can do to help improve things by Friday?

[Cacoethes]

Maybe. It must be noticeable if both my CC and psychiatrist have said something
I thought my mood was a bit 'off' but I didn't think it had got this bad!

I don't know.
I need to try and sleep properly. They said that will help.
So I've taken my meds and taken a zopiclone already in the hope that I will be tired soon.
And probably just try and slow down a bit!

[nonperson]

Sleeping better helps everything.

I was wondering what your pre-bed routine is? Like, are you on your phone/laptop/devices or even TV before bed as that can affect sleep.

[Cacoethes]

True!

I don't use my phone or anything when I'm actually in my bedroom. Up until that point I'm generally watching TV and/or on my phone. Once I turn everything off downstairs when I'm ready for bed than I don't look at my phone again

[nonperson]

That's good! I can't remember the specifics but I'm wondering how long it is recommended to be device-free before sleep.

[Cacoethes]

I shall google!
There's probably some guidelines about it

[Auror.]

Some travel things do allow for emergency cancellations/refunds. Since this would be cancelling due to a medical emergency if things don't turn around, it might be worth looking into.

I agree with the others - it doesn't sound like your team has a history of making empty threats, and if they know how much you've been looking forward to the trip I don't think they would threaten if they weren't prepared to follow through or felt it wasn't absolutely necessary.

I hope things can improve enough that you can go.

[Cacoethes]

I'll have a look into it

Yes they aren't ones for empty threats
I'm just worried that even if I do improve, they'll decide not to let me go 'just in case'.

Thank you

[Auror.]

Can you ask for specifics of what they would need in order for you to be able to go and/or what would be things that would make them not allow you to go?

[Cacoethes]

I'm seeing my CC tomorrow so she can check on me and see if I'm ok to go.
I will ask her.