Be honest about that, too. Sometimes hospital isn't the right place to be even if you are still unwell. Keep talking to people and hopefully you can decide on a plan together.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Not so great
I have ward round tomorrow with a different doctor because the usual consultant is self isolating for 2 weeks. I'm not sure who this new doctor is and whether they will discharge me tomorrow or not
I really want to go home
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I admitted to a nurse that I lied to the consultant saying I was ok. But really I still need to kill myself to save the world.
I'm hoping that message hasn't been passed on and they'll let me go home still.
Things on the ward are getting worse. We have to eat meals separated so 7 at a time and stay in our rooms as much as possible.
So any leave is just not going to happen.
I'm so sick of this
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I have spoken about it.
I even asked for prn earlier but was ignored.
I'm supposed to have an hour 3 times a week but I haven't been out once.
Though I'm going out now. To a&e because I self harmed.
And my CC who I really like appears to have left so I have a new one now. A man i dont know which I am uncomfortable with.
Also I may have my phone taken off me at some point so if I disappear, that is why.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Beckie I'm sorry you're having such a miserable time :(
Most A&Es are able to cohort covid patients, so if there's no concern that you might have it they should be able to take you and treat you in the covid-free area. It might be worth asking staff if they can give the A&E a call to see if that's the case.
Just got back from a&e.
One of the day staff took me and still hasn't gone home yet.
It's all kicking off here now though for several reasons.
I wish I'd run away or something but I couldn't have done that to the day staff that stayed with me
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Probably not
And I had no money or anything with me anyway so where would I have gone?
Yes it's settled down now
We just had a couple of people brought back by police who weren't happy about it and some new admissions who also weren't happy so it was all a bit mad.
I think I'm getting depressed.
I'm sleeping a lot and it's getting harder and harder to get dressed in the morning. I don't think I'll get dressed at all today.
I haven't been properly depressed in years.
It's this place
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I understand how being in hospital can make you depressed, especially with everything that is happening outside at the moment too. Please keep trying to get dressed etc, even if it's hard, I'm sure you could still do it and the achievements might lift your mood a bit. How have you been getting on so far today?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
