I want run away...

[yoyogirl]

Help me I can’t stop thinking of running away, I keep going over the plans of what I’m going to do and how I’m going to do it in my head. I know I am adult and can make my own decisions in life...
I have told my mental health team and they’ve sent me an earlier appointment but it seems nothing I do seems to get away from this feeling.
I even tried Samaritiains and load of meaningless distractions, that solve no purpose but to make want to sleep, friendships I don’t want to bother even and there and other things I’m not in thr right place for mentally and physically.
I don’t even want to contemplate the problems of life, they are far boring to even think about ..
I’m not well enough to look for work, I am not well enough to even do stuff voluntary, there is no garantee my fibromylagia would be in good place or MH with Bpd. I have been signed off sick pernamently....
I’m actuallly more concerned with running from everything, no wanting to be here/wanting to be here issues then those problems.. I want to run away

[one_step_closer]

I think I can understand what you mean, it can be hard when you are tried of what is going on in your life. The only suggestions I can think of are - can you physically run/exercise? Sometimes it's enough even just to be actually running. Can you go on a short trip somewhere? Or can you think of ways to tackle the things that you want to run from?