I'm actually doing ok, less anxious than this morning. But I have put a bit of foil in my pillow, you know, to stop them getting in my mind when I'm in bed.
I'm glad you're less anxious. It's a shame you've felt like you had to put foil in your pillow though, that shows that you're still quite worried and anxious. I hope you can begin to challenge your worries and they ease off soon.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
The meeting sounds more positive than self harming. I can understand the urges, especially when you haven't self harmed for a long time but you're doing really amazingly and those urges would hopefully lessen with more time. Self harming would just spoil things for you if you couldn't make it to the meeting. Are there other ways you can express yourself and let out some of the feelings of behaving yourself? Maybe something simple like punching a pillow or going somewhere quiet and screaming? I know it's not the same. What would overdosing/not behaving do for you?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
This sort of thing has happened before when you've been stressed or unwell though and doesn't tend to happen when you're doing ok. What would overdosing do? What is your Mum saying?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
ODIng would make everything stop. My mum hasn't really said anything, just regularly asks me how I am. When i go to Mass she is still either having someone go with me, or dropping me off and picking me up.
Make what stop? I don't really think ODing would make anything stop for good, there are probably better and safer ways to manage things. It's good that your Mum is checking how you are, please be honest with her if you can.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Feelings are not always right though, that's why you have to look at logic. It's so easy to be overpowered by a feeling. Feelings don't really tell you what to do they just tell you that you're overwhelmed or whatever. You don't even actually need to act on feelings. I know it can be really hard though.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I went through all my options and looked at the pros and cons of each and I have decided, for now, to stay safe, even though I really want to OD. But I think I will need help with this!
I'm so glad you looked at the pros and cons and have decided to stay safe, I think that is absolutely the right decision. Have you spoken to your family so they can support you? What can we do to help?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.