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02-07-2019, 06:27 PM
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#161
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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: U.K.
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Not undereating is making me feel greedy. Maybe if I SH I can shift the focus?
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02-07-2019, 06:39 PM
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#162
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Camden
Join Date: Jun 2007
Location: USA
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Restricting is also a form of self harm, so that doesn't really shift focus at all. What do you mean when you say you're feeling SHy? That to me means you are having urges to self harm, but doesn't really say anything about feelings or what is going on thought wise. Unless I misunderstood what you meant.
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Please do not give me virtual hugs unless you are only using the hug function on threads. Thanks.
You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
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02-07-2019, 06:43 PM
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#163
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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: U.K.
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You understood right :) I'm feeling quite vulnerable and alone because of fears around cameras, the implant and the Organisation. I've talked about it with family and they were reassuring, but I can't believe them. 1% of me thinks I need to review my meds so I'm trying to trust that.
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03-07-2019, 03:04 PM
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#164
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The Shadow of the Day
Join Date: Oct 2004
Location: Scotland
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How are you doing today? A meds review might be useful, even if only a small part of you thinks it's needed. I guess it depends on what your psych and CPN say. Will you mention it to them?
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I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
You didn't come this far just to come this far.
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03-07-2019, 03:43 PM
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#165
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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: U.K.
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My CPN knows, he's meant to be getting a psych appointment m
Today is hard, I'm so tempted to cut.
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03-07-2019, 04:42 PM
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#166
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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: U.K.
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The psych isn't in this week so my CPN can't make an appointment yet.
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03-07-2019, 05:22 PM
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#167
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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: U.K.
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Never will I offer their offerings of blood
I must not SH
I must not SH
I must not SH
I am getting more scared of the Organisation. I want to tell my CPN about it but mustn't come across needy or attention seeking.
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03-07-2019, 05:40 PM
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#168
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The Shadow of the Day
Join Date: Oct 2004
Location: Scotland
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If you think it would help to tell your CPN then that is what he is there for.
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I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
You didn't come this far just to come this far.
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03-07-2019, 05:48 PM
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#169
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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: U.K.
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I will try to talk to my mum about it, she'll be back from work soon. Maybe if I still feel like this tomorrow I will text my CPN.
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03-07-2019, 06:32 PM
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#170
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The Shadow of the Day
Join Date: Oct 2004
Location: Scotland
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That sounds like a good idea. I'm glad your Mum is there for you.
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I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
You didn't come this far just to come this far.
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03-07-2019, 06:54 PM
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#171
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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: U.K.
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We've agreed to check in on my beliefs every day so my family can support me.
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03-07-2019, 08:46 PM
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#172
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Join Date: Jan 2007
I am currently:
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I'm really glad to hear that. We're always here for you too.
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04-07-2019, 09:17 AM
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#173
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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: U.K.
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I've texted my CPN to ask for an appointment but I doubt that he will be able to fit me in soon.
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04-07-2019, 10:06 AM
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#174
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Join Date: Jan 2007
I am currently:
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Well done on texting him, I hope he can see you soon.
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04-07-2019, 03:31 PM
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#175
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The Shadow of the Day
Join Date: Oct 2004
Location: Scotland
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It's good that you reached out to your CPN, hopefully he will see you asap. Are you still talking through things with your Mum?
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I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
You didn't come this far just to come this far.
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04-07-2019, 06:48 PM
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#176
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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: U.K.
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A didn't reply but my friend L helped me think of the pros and cons of taking meds so I have decided to keep taking them for now.
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04-07-2019, 06:55 PM
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#177
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Join Date: Jan 2007
I am currently:
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I can understand how hard it is sometimes to take medication but you really are doing the best thing for yourself by taking them and I'm glad your friend helped you see that a bit more clearly.
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05-07-2019, 03:11 PM
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#178
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The Shadow of the Day
Join Date: Oct 2004
Location: Scotland
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It's definitely a good idea to keep taking meds. Please don't ever stop them suddenly because I'm sure you know things could get worse. If you have questions about your meds then wait until you can speak to your psych or CPN.
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I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
You didn't come this far just to come this far.
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05-07-2019, 05:02 PM
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#179
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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: U.K.
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Thanks both of you.
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05-07-2019, 08:39 PM
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#180
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Camden
Join Date: Jun 2007
Location: USA
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Also stopping meds abruptly can mean pretty awful physical withdrawal. :P
Out of curiosity - have you always had the man and the other voices to listen to and rely on? Was there a time in your life where they were not present? If so, do you remember who you trusted then?
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Please do not give me virtual hugs unless you are only using the hug function on threads. Thanks.
You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
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