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Contains sexual abuse - How do I tell my boyfriend I want to write about my experiences?
It's been an interesting week. Memories from my past were stirred up, and my mood was low enough that - after several years away - I find myself back on RYL looking for guidance.
Even whilst going through my PTSD (caused by an attempted r*pe) I knew that I wanted to help others dealing with similar issues. Having now fully recovered from the 'PTSD hell' and been symptom free for a while now, I have been working to move on with my life and perhaps do some of the things the PTSD stopped me from doing - things like getting a degree, and following a real 'career path' (not just lurching from job to job).
With things being stirred up this week, for the first time in a long while I have tried to put 'pen to paper' about my own experiences, and - so far - it seems to be working (although I haven't written about any of the really bad stuff yet). The idea of writing a book terrifies (and excites) me, so I set up a blog instead, thinking I could ''just write'' (on the excellent advice of someone at RYL) and worry about a book later, if and when I decided to go that route.
I would publish under a 'pen name' and not tell my family, if I did write a book. But I would want my boyfriend to know, and the same about the blog, I want to tell him but I'm concerned he won't understand why I feel the need to write about the 'bad times' in my life, now that I/we finally have good times.
It doesn't help that I find talking very difficult at times, I am much better at the 'written word', whereas he finds it natural to chat really openly about things. I am considering showing him the ''About'' page I have drafted for the blog, or perhaps sending him a text saying I am thinking of writing a blog about it... what do you think, how would you approach this? Any help gratefully received!!
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