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Emotionally Abused by My Mother
I need to tell this to the world, hoping to find people that have the same situation as i do or give me some advice.
My mother likes to call me a prostitute, a sl*t, a wh*re. She has been calling me names like this since I was 13. I'm 22 this year. I do not think I dress like one at all.Everyone around me do not think I dress like one except her. We live in a warm climate. So people usually wear t shirts, tank tops and shorts here. But to my mom, she sees this kind of dressing as "sl*tty". It hurts me deeply that my own mother would call me such hurtful things. Even when I'm experimenting with makeup such as wearing red lipstick, she would say I look like a prostitute. I remember when I was 15, we took a family photo and when we gathered to look at the photos, she said to me "Wow you look like a prostitute".
Few months back, she saw me wearing bold lipstick. At the time I was wearing just simple t shirt and shorts. She pointed out the way I dress. She asked why do I always dress so sl*tty. She even compared me to my cousins. She said " They don't have to dress like a wh*re like you to look pretty"
I would say I have regular suicidal thoughts because of this. I can't seem to let it go. There is were a couple of times where I tried to talk to her about this. But she would say "But you really do look like a SL*T!i didn't say anything wrong". She is very stubborn and self righteous. So there is really no point talking to her about this. I just wanted to know if there are people out there who has the same situation as I do and what advice would you give me.
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