Lot of feelings coming up
Hey, hope it's ok to make another post. I've just been finding myself feeling a bit overwhelmed lately with a lot of feelings coming up from my past. I was bullied quite a lot by my family and many people for a long time- mostly just subtle stuff... being taught that noone thought like me or understood me but it was ok because my family loved me that way- which I know now is a lie; being taken to lots of doctors and told what was wrong with me- but rarely what was right.... little stuff like that.
I am struggling a lot with an ED which very much takes on the shape of this stuff. It tells me I'm wrong and disgusting; different- before others get the chance to say which I guess I know they probably wouldn't because these things are not true. I just wanted to make a thread to talk about this stuff and get it out from inside my head.
I hope that's ok.... at the moment I am needing more support and I have quite a bit now, having linked up with my counsellor, doctor, dietitian etc. It feels so wrong and greedy to need this much. I guess that's another thing I was taught....