It's good to hear from you Beckie. Sorry you're back in hospital. Srnding love and cookies. Hope the assessment goes well.
x x x
♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
I went to sleep at about 5pm because they gave me lorazepam after I started freaking out about something.
Woke up about 6am.
Just got to wait for ward round now.
I seriously hope they let me go. I can't do another day in here and haven't got any clothes or toiletries or anything.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Finally told my mum I'm here. She's just relieved that I'm safe. She was worried when I wasn't answering my phone last night and Saturday night.
Still no ward round. But one of the nurses has asked them if I could go in first.
Had a good chat with that nurse this morning, she said that I haven't been any trouble apart from being very agitated yesterday but I didn't kick off or anything.
Fingers crossed I get let out today.
Although they have started to catch on to the fact I'm not eating and drinking. I'm not doing it for lolz. There is a good reason that I'm not.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I'm sorry to hear how stressful your weekend has been Beckie. Hope you could get some answers at ward rounds- weekends are a hard time to be admitted to hospital. How are things for you today?
Did you get some sleep and have something to eat and drink? Sounds like you'll need strength to get through this. Thinking of you.
Alanna
So she lights up a candle for hope to be found
Captive and blind by the darkness around
Each wave a promise, a new hope reborn
Sunrise consoles at the break of dawn
Thanks guys. I should be going into ward round at 2.
I'm 99% sure I will be discharged.
Missing contact today though. Which I am really not happy about :'(
I just need to get out of here. Driving me mad.
I ran out of cigarettes, but the nice member of staff I've been talking to all day gave me a handful to keep me going.
I screamed at another patient earlier and had to be pulled away. But the staff understood why I did it and weren't bothered which is good.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Still haven't been seen. Gah!
Tbh, didn't really expect them to be running on time. This is hospital after all
And no mention of having the staples out yet! They are meant to come out today and they're getting sore.
I think its getting sorted now though.
I need to get out of here. I don't know how I coped with 8 years of sitting around, drinking tea, eating and hourly smoke breaks. I'm going ****ing crazy!!!
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Hospitals are boring enough to drive you bonkers (if you weren't when you went in you will be before you come out ). It's tougher on short stays too because as you said you haven't been to this hospital for years and you're waiting to get out- not optimal for actually forming any connections. Can you talk to them about the bathroom thing? I know professionals have rules for client safety but they can be smothering
So she lights up a candle for hope to be found
Captive and blind by the darkness around
Each wave a promise, a new hope reborn
Sunrise consoles at the break of dawn
Well, things went a bit chaotic because I was pulling my staples out. They pulled the alarm.
They wanted to inject me but didn't I know they can't.
So they said I had to get it looked at. So someone looked at it but needs the surgeon person (wtf? They are just cuts!!!) so then went to ward round and not sure what happened there because I got pissed off.
The doctor looked at the wounds again and said she was going to go and get the guy from the general side.
Was then put on 1-1 and took the rest of the staples out anyway.
BUT I'M GOING HOOOOME!!!
I have to see the crisis team but I'm going home!!!!
So ****ing happy!
Just waiting for medical guy now then I can go!!
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
). It's tougher on short stays too because as you said you haven't been to this hospital for years and you're waiting to get out- not optimal for actually forming any connections. Can you talk to them about the bathroom thing? I know professionals have rules for client safety but they can be smothering