Hello, I hope that I could talk to people on this site and I want to briefly share my story.
I'm really religious and I've been suicidal ever since 2010 for as long as I can remember. I don't think it's as bad as it was before when my best friend and a classmate suggested I seek help but the thought still lingers. I'm almost finished with my degree and I'm suppose to graduate soon but I cannot get into this one course that is preventing me from graduating and my mom's pressure is not helping either. She does not seem to understand that I'm under a lot of stress and that makes me want to take my own life so that she would understand. I did try explaining to her that I was under stress but that did not go so well. I did attempt suicide last year and self-harmed some months later. I'm always being discouraged everyday by my family and I recently broke up with my boyfriend at the start of this year but we're still best friends yet I find that even he is tired of listening to me. The only people who encourage me is my church and youtubers I have never met. I don't do well with people as if I have social anxiety and sometimes I think that I must be the most loneliest person in the world but I know there are people much worse than me. I just want to know that there is someone nearby who understands me.
Hi there, well you've definitely come to the right place.
I'm sorry you're having such a horrible time with it all.
It's great that your faith and YouTubers help - may I ask which YouTubers? I watch a ton haha
Oh, it's mostly gaming youtubers like Markiplier, EmSArcade, and I somewhat watch Jacksepticeye and I always hear them saying "You can do whatever you want." I especially hear Mark say that a lot