I hate myself so so bad...i feel even more dirty when i think about my actions when i was 19...it makes me feel like a dirty filthy whore who was selfish.
i felt like " HE" won in a way..
my abuser from when i was 14 he was 13..its so fcking hard to forget him when people have his name...
i cant stand skinny men ..it makes me feel bad like " HE" might find me...
i cant stand it ...the memories ..that slap me in the face..when i am happy..
and i feel like a wh*re .
i feel dirty!