Hey, how have the last few days been? Did you make it through that difficult night ok? I can empathize with being free from harm for a long time, but going through a really rough spot and feeling more comforted by the thought of harming than trying to resist. A few times i've felt that, i've given in. More recently I haven't. Either way, it usually passes. I just try to learn something from the experience, use it to help me hone my coping skills (whether in the moment or afterwards) and move on with my life. I know the urge will happen again at some point, and hopefully i'll have built up the skills to handle it, but if i do slip, I know that i can move on.
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