I miss you so much, you were an awesome friend. Why couldn't you see that it really was worth holding on? How could you leave us all behind? I love you forever Tahreeah...even these 12 long years later, your family miss you and love you still and so do all your friends. I know that you are with God and that He will Bless your family forever. Love Kaitlin
I had been looking forward to last weekend for months, you said you'd come live with me for a couple of weeks. Instead you came home for three days and spend the first couple of hours sulking because me and J weren't feeling up for something more than talking.
I liked you better the way you were. Since you moved you've been disconnected. It feels like you've become this new carefree person, and it doesn't suit you. You seem fake all the time, and I can't even talk to you anymore.
At the end of those three days I wanted nothing more than for you to leave again. What happened to us? And how can you not see how badly I'm coping right now?
You're the one who moved 6 hours away and you still put the blame on me and J for not being the same. Well, time passes, and people change. You made a choice, so deal with it.
I know you liked me the way I was, but I won't change again. I'm happy now, finally happy, and I'm not going back to how I was just for you. You're not worth it.
wistful
[14.06.2007] is excatly the way i feel right now i dont know what 2 do with myself im such a mess everything was there for the taking i could have but you know me 2 well if you like really know then dont breath a word because it wouldnt be the right time now would it and its not right really not i ****ing knew it but sometimes i dont want 2 listen 2 that little logical voice inside my head i will never understand why it knows and i choose 2 ignore it its always been there i just didnt want 2 admit it and i wouldnt dare 2 scream it from the ****ing rooftops now i just just you know i just want 2 curl up and die because it will never be the same again feel like crying but if i do that then it would have really ment something
wistful was excatly the way i felt then i didnt know what 2 do with myself i was such a mess
and you know what i think im finally over you
its time for some me time
time for me to get right and get better
Last edited by beautiful_mistake : 07-07-2007 at 11:32 PM.
Reason: didnt like the big writing i did on the last words
im a mistake
im not ment 2 be here
im trying 2 work through it
trying to accept myself
take it one day at a time
i wish it was that simple
i wish it could be summertime kisses and you feel that
shiver up your spine, those tingling butterflies in the pit of your stomach everyday
but its not like that
will it ever be like that?
I wish I had killed myself in 8th grade.
Why did you guys call 911?
I would've saved a lot of people a lot of trouble.
RIP Mike [4.1.06] RIP Grandma [8.2.08] Jon&Nicole[1.6.09] Sometimes when i say "oh i'm fine..."
i want someone to look me in the eyes and say "tell the t r u t h"
Why did you wait till now to tell me!!! I know its my fault you dont need to deny it!
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. ~ Girl Interrupted
When you dont want to feel, death seems like a dream. ~ Girl Interrupted
Since the first moment I saw you I haven't been able to get you out of my head. And I know you probably dont even know I exist. And it kills me. But I know I'll never be enough for you. You deserve so much better. It hurts everytime I think of you, which is everyday. And I cant help but wonder, if I wasn't broken, would I be good enough for you then??
I love you and I'm sorry I hurt you...and I'm sorry that I know I'm going to hurt you again and that I'm not good enough for you.I'm sorry that sorry is never enough.... I love you so much and I hope you never leave me....never leave me....
to be perfectly honest i dont want them 2 "support my attendance" and...
i dont want to go back
i dont want to go back there and work for them and put up with their attitude problems towards me and i know for a fact that i will get the "rules of absence" thrown at me because i know they dont really care about my state of mental health
Last edited by beautiful_mistake : 13-07-2007 at 01:45 AM.
Reason: x
- You deserve her, you really do...you deserve to be happy. Why does no one realise how amazing you are? Maybe if she saw it then she'd love you as much as you love her..and as much as i love you.
- I really wish i could tell you this, but i just dont know how to tell you, Its been almost 2 months since i last hurt myself...i just need you to be proud of me. =[
~*~Sometimes we put up walls, not to keep people out - but to see who cares enough to break them down ~*~
To the people who have continually broken down my walls, thank you, you are real friends who i will never forget. xxx
I want us to be friends again I never should have said anything i knew it would end like this. I should have supressed my feelings to keep you close
I love Alcohol Induced Altruism(Laura) I still say a church steeple with a lightning rod on top shows a lack of confidence - Doug McLeod Those who believe in absurdities will commit atrocities - Voltaire
Why do you put on a show for everyone else? I'm the only person you show you true self to, and because of it, I love you more than you could possibly imagine. Open up, and stop trying to impress. You're more amazing than you think. You deserve to be yourself.
I’m tired of looking ‘round rooms wondering what I gotta do, Or who I’m supposed to be.
I don’t want to be anything other than me
You can't destroy my happiness.
Because i'm so happy right now,so excited.
&&Your trying to destroy it,why would you want to do that?
When i'm sad you try and cheer me up,but why now when i'm happy your trying to make things worse for me?
Well **** you!
You were all in my life at some point and i will always remember that, you touched my heart and my soul, and i helped you all through the bad times when you had nobody else.
I just wish that when i help you to find the happiness you so deserve......i could be part of it with you still
After every storm, there is always a rainbow!
