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Old 12-04-2011, 02:41 AM   #1
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Why do you cut?

I cut because of self hate, guilt, and depression. What do you think drives you to cut? I thought most people cut for the same reasons as me but today I talked to a girl who said she used to do it when she was stressed.


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Old 12-04-2011, 02:47 AM   #2
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I cut for some of the same reasons you do. Most of it is because of self hatred and depression. Sometimes I do it after going a while without SI, even though things aren't really going wrong. It's just kinda a way I deal with things that are going on around me. Not a good coping mechanism though.

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Old 12-04-2011, 02:57 AM   #3
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Like the both of you above me have mentioned, self-hate I guess, depression, anger sometimes, when nothing seems to be going 'right.'

Many different reasons why anybody who does it does it. But not good thing to do and not really the best way, at all!



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Old 12-04-2011, 03:01 AM   #4
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I cut due to anxiety, depression, and self hatred. All the results of childhood abuse.



"Life it seems to fade away, drifting farther everyday. Getting lost within myself. Nothing matters, no one else. Deathly lost, this can't be real. Cannot stand this hell I feel. Emptiness is filling me."

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Old 12-04-2011, 05:12 AM   #5
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Anxiety, stress, taking the edge off intense emotions, control. Physical pain is easier to deal with than emotional pain. It's also a reminder that what I am feeling at the time isn't all in my head.

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Old 12-04-2011, 05:56 AM   #6
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I cut to make sure the purple monsters in my head stop talking to me.

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Old 12-04-2011, 06:40 AM   #7
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control. sometimes i get overwhelmed by feelings and i don't know how to deal with them. sometimes i do it because i like the distraction. sometimes i just need to destroy things.

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Old 12-04-2011, 07:07 AM   #8
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Why do I: because it hurts

Why don't I: because it hurts

Too many conflicting emotions.



.. I was younger and restless back then.


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Old 12-04-2011, 09:05 AM   #9
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Control?
Half the time, I don't even know why I do it so it doesn't even make sense. But I do know that it's going to make whatever negative emotions I have, go away. I'm not sure there are solid reasons, it's just a little bit like a habit now.

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Old 12-04-2011, 11:32 AM   #10
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I cut because i choose to. It may not be a rational thought at the time, but I feel in choosing it, I can fix things, so for me, Its a choice.



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Old 12-04-2011, 12:22 PM   #11
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Self hatred, anger I can't express properly, making it fair, punishment, but mostly through anger and resentment directed at myself I guess.

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Old 12-04-2011, 07:05 PM   #12
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self-hatred, depression, anxiety
yet i do it when i am happy too, so i think it is because it is the one thing i can control.



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Old 12-04-2011, 09:01 PM   #13
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I used to think I did it for a lot of reasons - the ones mentioned like self-hatred, guilt, depression, also because it seems to prevent panic attacks escalating, and when I wasn't thinking 'right' I did it to 'get back at' someone.

But I think now that it's to have a sense of control.

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Old 12-04-2011, 10:20 PM   #14
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A variety of reasons.
I do it mainly to calm myself from anxiety and sadness, but sometimes I do it out of self-hate and anger or as self-punishment. Other times though, I have no real reason at all and just do it for the want or feeling..

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Old 13-04-2011, 12:06 AM   #15
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Self-hate, depression, hopelessness, to have something I still get control over, mostly anger I think tho. I don't really know if it's that which leads me to cut, I just do it.



I never thought I'd feel this
Guilty and I'm broken down inside
Livin' with myself nothing but lies
I always thought I'd make it
But never knew I'd let it get so bad
Livin' with myself is all I have
I feel numb
I can't come to life
I feel like I'm frozen in time


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Old 13-04-2011, 12:22 AM   #16
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I hate myself therefore punishment.
It's the only thing that makes me feel calm.
It helps me to escape thoughts and feelings and memories.
Like Em said as well, control is a huge part of this.
In a strange way, it also helps me to feel less alone.



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Old 13-04-2011, 12:42 AM   #17
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to me it can be to feel something in emptiness, cos of depression/ mental pain and sometimes to punish myself.




'Fix me. Fix my head. Fix me please. I don't wanna be dead.
Someday. I'll feel no pain. Someday. I won't have a brain.They'll take away the part that hurts. And let the rest remain.'

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Old 13-04-2011, 12:44 AM   #18
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I'm on my 12th day of no self-harm today, but when I cut, there were many reasons. You see, I was and still am going through a time when doctors were dismissing my many pains and illnesses without a second thought. I started self-harming (not cutting, other methods) in order to create "real" pain and "proof" of this pain's reality. It was also an issue of control. If I could only self-harm enough, maybe I'd calm down.

By the time it had developed to cutting, I STARTED cutting because I hated myself (the result of depression and several anxiety disorders) because I wasn't perfect, and I felt the need to punish myself. I felt I deserved the pain as punishment. I would never deserve happiness. And by the time it had become a habit, it was an issue of addiction. It was the only way I KNEW how to cope any more, so it was my first response.

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