Didn't think I'd be back here
Hey folks... haven't posted anything on here in so so so long and I thought that I pretty much had things sorted and somewhat under control.
Then I remembered... it's me. It's never that simple.
Basically, 2016 has been the worst year of my life. Seriously bad. I've lost friends, I've lost my job, all my money, my home, my marriage collapsed (we've worked things out and I'll be moving back to London early next year once I've got things sorted), after this happened, I was in a relationship that imploded spectacularly (she expected me to allow her to see other people and have sex with them and not say anything), after this ended I found myself back in Newcastle living at my parents place (nowhere else to go) and within a week of being there, my grandmother had a massive stroke. Within a week, she passed away.
I have no medication, no help from MH services and not much in the way of friends anymore. I'm seriously at a loose end now and I have no idea how to fix things. The biggest thing I have to look forward to is getting back with my wife (we never divorced and still consider ourselves as married) and moving back to london.
Mentally, I'm so so tired. I don't know how much more I can actually take this year. I know it's nearly over, but I fear that there may be more ahead. I really don't know what to do. I'm scared. Thats the top and bottom of it, I'm scared.