theyre things that arent there and i know theyre not there. im used to seeing them, i have since i was 9, but lately theyve been vivid, ive been able to feel them, and i feel really upset or mad or whatever i would feel if it was actually happening. and once i couldnt remember which one was real, this or that... it only happened once but it was horrible. its my boyfriend i keep seeing, i love him so much, i hate seeing him doing those things..
If you're not ready to do those things then you should tell your boyfriend that. If he's a good guy he shouldn't force you to do anything scary. And if you're having flashbacks here's some grounding techniques to bring you back to safety. We can even do some in here if you like.
he didnt make me do anything! he is great! im just SEEING and FEELING him do things... and im not getting them now im just scared, it was so much clearer than any others ive had, it felt really real, it scared me...
*hugs abba* It'll be okay honey, just remember when and where you are. You're safe and no one is hurting you. Look around, stand up and feel the ground under you. You'll be okay honey.
*nods and walks around a little* im calming down its just.. i dont want this to become regular. i dealt with seeing things, and feeling flashbacks, but feeling things? its too hard...
You can do it sweetheart, you're doing well just by bringing yourself out of it and try to talk to people for help. And why not print out those groundings and keep them handy if you need them at anytime okay? You should be able to make yourself feel safe whenever.