Anyone else or is it just me * mentions death

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Thanks have now got an appointment with the gp next Wed in the afternoon and the psychiatrist s secretary has been emailed too so when she's back at work she will try to book me an appointment apparently its about four weeks wait for that surprisingly I thought it would be longer to wait for psychiatrist

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Yeah September is coming in fast eh

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That's really good, I'm glad you managed to get an appointment sorted and hopefully will get an appointment with the psychiatrist too. How are you feeling about the appointment? Do you know what you want to say?

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Not too sure how to feel about the apt. There's a lot to mention like the voices nd how long they've been about how my moodswings are worse I'm mostly down but sometimes hyper. My sleep is still f*ck*d which isn't ideal then there's the cpn that left and my reaction to that..... Maybe I should have booked a double appointment

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Maybe you could list things in the order you think is most important, then if you don't get round to everything you could always book another appointment and maybe a double one that time. Does your GP know much about you already?

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Yeah she's been my gp for two years at least now so she knows me quite well good ideas with priority list and booking a second appointment mayb the second one cud be a double and I can arrange that when I come back from visiting my grandparents

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It's good that you won't have to explain everything from scratch then if she knows you already. Good luck with the appointment.

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Thanks

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I just wanted to say again that I hope your appointment goes well. How are you feeling about it?

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Aww thanks one step closer. Have been a bit nervous about it but have a friend coming with me tomorrow now so that's good just worried we won't get it all covered in time as it's only a double appointment cud almost do with a triple one at this point!!! Shud b fine tho. Thanks will update tomorrow night

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Dr's went well got a lot out n it was good to see her have to go back on my meds again but that's OK coz she said we can look into reducing one of them in the future. And after I've visited my grandparents we may increase the dose or tweak my meds but for now I've just gotta take them. Will try harder at changing my diet n exercising more it should be fine

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That sounds good, I'm glad it was a positive appointment. What might help you with diet/exercise changes?

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Gp suggested pictures of healthy foods on the fridge and a list of healthy foods I also have my own crosstrainer so I can go on that for a certain amount of time per day every day

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Currently away on holiday visiting my grandparents and having a great time so will start properly when I get back

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That sounds like a good plan. Enjoy your holiday.

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Thank u I am enjoying it a lot xx

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Been back from holiday for two and a bit weeks been mute for a while now nine days today feeling pretty sh*t today and I'm gonna be alone all day because of it. Feel frustrated with myself and frustrated in general. It's so isolating and I feel very alone. Can't even say hi to anyone. I want to hurt myself but that wud just make things worse coz then I'd b expected to talk at a and e or I'd have to write it all down. Wish I cud do a runner just run away from the world I've had enough of it all. Why does everything rely on speaking. I've got Dr's tomorrow and I don't even know what to write down for it I wish I could just cancel the appointment

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Have cancelled the appointment

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Will you rearrange the appointment when you're better able to communicate? I'm sorry you're feeling so awful. Has something triggered this?

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Yeah will rearrange when I'm better xxxx yeah my anxiety tends to trigger it. Thanks