Not doing well.

brokentenchi · 24-11-2016, 08:04 PM

I"m on a rollar coaster of emotions. I can be suicidal at one point and then hypomanic craving sex, super productive, excessive spending. Psychiatrist is unreachable my therapist has been trying.

Patent Pending · 25-11-2016, 01:06 PM

Hi there,

It sounds like you're going through a rough time right now.

Is there a duty psychiatrist you could see? You should be able to ask for an emergency appointment if it's required, which it sounds like it is.

Has your therapist suggested anything for the time being?

x x x

Sooty · 25-11-2016, 08:47 PM

Sorry to hear that things are so difficult at the moment and your emotions are swinging from one extreme to another. Have you managed to see anyone? Remember you can go to A&E if you feel like you need emergency help from a professional.

Sophie.x

brokentenchi · 26-11-2016, 01:50 AM

It's the ER over here and from what I've read completely different. The ER here is completely unhelpful and I've had a bad history with them. And in a small town that hospital is the only option and has no mental health unit. We have county services but if they say you need to go even if you agree it's an automatic involuntary admit taken by cop or ambulance because of the distance to the city. I can't cope with that right now. My therapist has been checking in daily and I'm staying with my fiancé and his family so I'm not alone. I spend my day trying to keep my mind busy. I've found I can get lost in coloring on my IPAD or playing an online game. I don't know what the deal is with my psychiatrist they say they are short staffed at the moment.

brokentenchi · 26-11-2016, 01:52 AM

I go back to work on Monday so seeing the kids and being loved on for no reason at all helps.

Juniperi · 26-11-2016, 02:21 AM

Working with kids is great for that hey! What sort of work do you do? *sends you love for no reason to tide you over until Monday*

brokentenchi · 26-11-2016, 02:31 AM

Pre K and Kindergarten Music teacher

Juniperi · 26-11-2016, 02:35 AM

That sounds amazing. How are you feeling today/tonight?

brokentenchi · 26-11-2016, 02:42 AM

I'm here. I slept off and on today. Helped mother in law and fiancé put up christmas stuff to the best of my ability with my knee messed up. The thoughts are still there but I've shoved them in the back of my head.

Juniperi · 26-11-2016, 02:44 AM

That sounds alright...not ideal, but alright. Are you feeling calm enough to keep riding things out? What do you have on for the weekend?

brokentenchi · 26-11-2016, 05:55 PM

The calmness to ride things out comes and goes. Today is hard since its an anniversary of not something good. Wrote my therapist see if she responds.

Patent Pending · 27-11-2016, 04:08 PM

Hey there,

How are you feeling?

Did your therapist get back to you?

I hope you were able to get through the anniversary safely.

x x x

brokentenchi · 27-11-2016, 08:28 PM

Today isn't a good day. I'm sticking with my fiancé as I know I can't be safe on my own. I made it through the anniversary safely once again because of my fiancé. My therapist hasn't responded but it is the weekend and she is entitled to have a life.

Patent Pending · 27-11-2016, 08:50 PM

It's good you're finding a way to be safe today, and well done for making it through the anniversary, I know how hard they can be.

Ah, days run into one with me and I forget it's the weekend, I hope she is able to get back to you during office hours.

x x x

brokentenchi · 28-11-2016, 10:00 PM

Have an emergency appt today

brokentenchi · 29-11-2016, 01:47 AM

Nothing done other than a psychiatrist appointment on the 19. We talked about me relabeling the days so I can get through them easier. Told her I wanted to die she said I know you don't have a plan and can't hurt Paul like that.