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1 year, update thank you ryl
Hello ryl, man its been a while since ive been on here but traveling
With limited internet can do that
Hard to believe last october i was 1 year self harm free.
I am proud to say this site has worked wonders for me, i love the atmosphere
And community, feels great to let out problems without being judged
as i see it we are all facing this issue together ive never seen such unity
And support all in one support, whenever i have a trigger attack i always
Go here to calm down, makes me feel less alienated.
So thank you for saving me, not only from self harm but my actual self
Moving forwards been allot easier and joyful than i thought prolly cause
Im being nicer to myself both physicslly and emotionally. In my past i let allot
Of bullies, family members and even my now rx girlfriend tell me
Who i was and how little i was worth. The one thing i regret more than
Self harming was actually believing what those people said.
Im traveling allot more now, way back i thought i was the only one who had
The mindset i had which always left me isolated and angry at
The yuppies. But now i have realized that my lifestyle is not a
Social curse but a blessing i am truly proud of. i am acting on what i want to do
Rather than settling for a life i dont want. After talking boit this with my close friends
And family, i noticed its paying off.
I still struggle with mild trigger attacks but, am in much better control
Of that and now know when to take action to cease that ugly punch.
A new coping mechanism i use is simple, when i feel angry at somebody
Past or present, instead of ranting and fantasizing bout giving them what they
Deserve, i just sit down and write a letter to someone whos done me good
In life. Students who took time to understand me rather than judge me,
Teachers who actually taught me something i could actually understand, a councelor
Who helped me during some of my most ugliest phases in school
And thank them for that act of kindness and how much i improved the
Last time we got together. Its so much better thinking bout the good people
Who helped me than the ones whove done me wrong. Those pricks dont deserve
My attention. The kind people who took the time to help a freak like me deserves to
Know that they did a great job.
My recovery went so well i even forgot bout my 1 yr mark.
The only trouble im having is dealing with the shame and guilt of being
A brutish self harmer, if anyone has advice please let me know itd be wel appreciated
Sincerely
A young man whos face was covered with lumps and bruises and
Spat blood
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