I just cut myself and I want to cut more. It took everything in me to stop when I did. I feel like I already failed so I might as well make the best of it and really go at it. I'm doing everything I can right now to distract myself but it's not working. I don't know what to do, I'm not sure I can fight myself over this much longer. I'm too weak. I already crossed the line. I just want to cut and not feel bad about it. To not feel like I'm letting myself and everyone down. Sometimes I want to ditch everyone in my life so then I would be free to cut as much and as often as I want. I know I shouldn't cut some more, but I just feel like tearing my skin off. I'm shaking I want to cut so badly. I already did quite a bit of damage but I guess it just wasn't enough. I don't even know what I'm looking for here, I just need something to distract me so I won't go upstairs and do more damage.
"Life it seems to fade away, drifting farther everyday. Getting lost within myself. Nothing matters, no one else. Deathly lost, this can't be real. Cannot stand this hell I feel. Emptiness is filling me."
hey, firstly well done for putting the knife down, if you can focus on these forums or replying to me or something (your welcome to pm me).
i just want to say i hope you manage to make it through,i know how you feel and i can promise that cutting again wont help it.
really hope your ok. and sorry if i didnt help much
xx
Nobody knows me im cold
Walk down this road all alone
Its noones fault but my own
Its the path ive chosen to go
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever
Thanks, I appreciate your response. As dumb as it sounds I decided to paint my nails, something to do with my hands that will take a bit to dry so I won't want to ruin it. It feels like I'm starving on the inside and cutting is the food I really need. Maybe that's a dumb way of explaining it but it's like something inside of me is aching for more. I don't want to give in, but in my head I'm not worth the fight. I'm trying though, I'm really trying.
"Life it seems to fade away, drifting farther everyday. Getting lost within myself. Nothing matters, no one else. Deathly lost, this can't be real. Cannot stand this hell I feel. Emptiness is filling me."
its honestly a great way of describing it, i used the analogy of been hungry and it been my food to my counsillor.
Yeah the doing something with the hands is what helps me, i recently even started playing pokemon again!?!?!!?
so what colour did you go for the nail varnish?
xx
Nobody knows me im cold
Walk down this road all alone
Its noones fault but my own
Its the path ive chosen to go
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever
and your definitely worth the fight, everyone is :D even me! i think lol
xx
Nobody knows me im cold
Walk down this road all alone
Its noones fault but my own
Its the path ive chosen to go
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever
Yeah, it feels like starving, it's awful. I went with black, it's pretty much the only color I ever paint my nails. I'm boring.
"Life it seems to fade away, drifting farther everyday. Getting lost within myself. Nothing matters, no one else. Deathly lost, this can't be real. Cannot stand this hell I feel. Emptiness is filling me."
Thanks, I don't think I'm worth much of anything though.
"Life it seems to fade away, drifting farther everyday. Getting lost within myself. Nothing matters, no one else. Deathly lost, this can't be real. Cannot stand this hell I feel. Emptiness is filling me."
haha,so im going to make you absolutely cringe now, but i need cheering up and you need distractions, so its now officially your job to make me laugh with your best joke....yep im been serious lol :P
by the way i realise im been silly, but if you want a more serious just chat just say....i honestly hope i help. cuz i understanding the crapness of the feeling..
xx
Nobody knows me im cold
Walk down this road all alone
Its noones fault but my own
Its the path ive chosen to go
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever
Nobody knows me im cold
Walk down this road all alone
Its noones fault but my own
Its the path ive chosen to go
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever
As for a joke... if this were in person I know exactly what joke I would tell, but it just wouldn't have the same effect in typing. So instead I will tell you my other favorite joke...
Why did the monkey fall out of the tree?
"Life it seems to fade away, drifting farther everyday. Getting lost within myself. Nothing matters, no one else. Deathly lost, this can't be real. Cannot stand this hell I feel. Emptiness is filling me."
Nobody knows me im cold
Walk down this road all alone
Its noones fault but my own
Its the path ive chosen to go
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever
I know it's awful, but it always makes me laugh. There's just something about lame jokes I love.
"Life it seems to fade away, drifting farther everyday. Getting lost within myself. Nothing matters, no one else. Deathly lost, this can't be real. Cannot stand this hell I feel. Emptiness is filling me."
there are two muffins in the oven, one muffin turns to the other and says
"is it me,or is it hot in here?"
the other muffin screams
"arggggghhhhhh a talking muffin"
lame i know
x
Nobody knows me im cold
Walk down this road all alone
Its noones fault but my own
Its the path ive chosen to go
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever
LOL! That made me smile, thanks. Most of the jokes I know are really horrible and offensive, so I'm trying to come up with unoffensive jokes to share.
Ooooh! Why was Tigger looking in the toilet?
To find Pooh. :)
"Life it seems to fade away, drifting farther everyday. Getting lost within myself. Nothing matters, no one else. Deathly lost, this can't be real. Cannot stand this hell I feel. Emptiness is filling me."
yeah im notorious for bad taste jokes, sickipedia is my homepage!
i remember someone telling me that tigger joke when i was a young un!
Nobody knows me im cold
Walk down this road all alone
Its noones fault but my own
Its the path ive chosen to go
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever
Yeah, I always know the most offensive jokes. Maybe it's not something to be proud of but they always make me laugh.
Yeah, it's an old joke I remembered from when I was a kid.
I feel so angry right now, I'm trying to get the anger under control. It's kind of ridiculous.
"Life it seems to fade away, drifting farther everyday. Getting lost within myself. Nothing matters, no one else. Deathly lost, this can't be real. Cannot stand this hell I feel. Emptiness is filling me."
i dont know what time it is for you, but does going for a walk help, or cooking some food, something that takes your mind off things for a bit?
Nobody knows me im cold
Walk down this road all alone
Its noones fault but my own
Its the path ive chosen to go
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever
I'm an idiot. I ended up picking a fight with my husband and he left. I know he's sick of all of this sh*t. I just feel so angry. It's stupid really. I'm waiting for the day when I drive him away for good.
I'm calming down, though I think "crashing" would be a more fitting term.
As Metallica says, "Where do I take this pain of mine, I run but it stays right by my side."
"Life it seems to fade away, drifting farther everyday. Getting lost within myself. Nothing matters, no one else. Deathly lost, this can't be real. Cannot stand this hell I feel. Emptiness is filling me."
