Arm update
Well, I am glad that I got to upload the things I wanted onto dA because I will be taking a rest for a while. Not just dA, but from a lot of other things too.
My arm. The passed three months I have been having trouble with my dominant arm. A doctor said it was carpal tunnel. It’s been bothering me for a long time. Not just my wrist, but my entire arm. I think it’s the nerves in my arm.
Last night I had a break down. I bent my arm and pulled out the stylus for my DS, and something shot through my arm. The pain in my arm brought me to tears. I lost it. I don’t think I have cried from physical pain in years. I haven’t cried in months. I don’t cry.
I am honestly scared for my arm. It is my dominant arm. I am an artist. That’s all I know. I am afraid to be in pain for the rest of my life. I am afraid that it won’t get better on it’s own. I am afraid that if they have to operate to fix it, then I will be without my arm for months. I can’t be without my arm. I can’t function without it. I am afraid that if they don’t operate. They will just give me pain medication and send me on my way. I have seen what that can do to people. I don’t want to live off of morphine and lortab, for I have seen how much that changes people.
Phronemophobia-Image and I talked and she really calmed me down and helped me through my break down. I found my brace. I’m going to live in it for the next three days, and try to use my arm as little as possible. It’s going to be really difficult for me, but I feel like this absolutely has to be done.
For those who know me, I am going to need help with this. Yes, I am asking for help. I’m going to try my hardest to take care of this. And it’s tearing me up inside that I can’t work on my novel right now...
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