Tis probably the most frustrating that my MOTHER wants me to wear both realy girly, and REALLLLLY slutty(reavaling, lowcut, tight) clothes, whereas i'm happyset in jeans, tshirts, the odd dress (don'task...) and NOT SHOWING SKIN...
Oddly, i'm mostly comfertable with my sexuality.. honestly i don't think that should be an issue (yeh, im bi.. so neyh neyh) but..
I'm somewhat in your position [crazy]girl. I went through just about every option of what I could possibly consider myself- from fantasies of jerking off like a guy, to just wishing I could cut off my breasts (which I still wish, but that's partially because they're so big ;_; ). You could be androgynous, genderqueer. Then again, I do know FTMs who had no interest in actually changing their body through the whole surgery process and are just male in mentality.
I don't necessarily believe there is a cure for this... -- The Dresden Dolls ;; Girl Anachronism
i wouldn't call my decision "final." basically over time the "evidence" just keeps piling up until you just have to admit it, lol. At least, that's how it was for me. Nothing big or dramatic...just realizing that i've never seen a guy in my life that i've been attracted to, and admitting that i am attracted to women. it was confusing for a while, but after some time things are much clearer. Basically it just took time.
yeah iv always reckond f to m drag was hot... you know? like male suits and tied back hair where you cant actually tell if theyr a real pretty guy or a good looking girl... heh lol guess everyone has things they think about that they think are sort of weird... buit that's why we can think... to keep people out of things that could embaras us :) plus i like the LOOK of guy but not so muc hthe features +side to F to M drag :D
I want to disappear down the rabbit hole...
And have a tea party. Care to join?
i like to think i dont 'fall in love with' a reproductive organ, i fall in love with people
you put it perfectly kona!
and lol aimee...me tooooooooo!
I don't think any age is too old to be questioning your gender, it is a complicated thing. I think we are lucky here on RYL to have so many people who understand that it is a real, painful, and difficult journey for some (i say some, because reality is that it isn't difficult for everybody).
I am currently struggling with many aspects of my sexuality and i understand greatly what it feels like to be classed in a minority.
For those who are interested, two movies i found helped me were the Kinsey Movie (i think that's what it's called), and Boys Don't Cry (be warned this movie may be VERY TRIGGERING and is 18+ rated). They will not answer your questions, but they help to open your eyes and mind to things
take care, and if you are really struggling look up your local gay/lesbian/queer phone counseling service and give them a call!
Melancholia is my mummy Black Rose is my cupboard hiding in buddie All I'm Living For owns me...i'm her pet frog Aimee in Wonderland is my best-ever-man-girl-lover Lozza is my lovely care bear