Am I? Could I be? Never have been before...
But if I am it will break everything.
I'm begging someone...somewhere... but I don't quite know for what...
My Chest reads "HELP" It is no longer what I need... It is what I do. [IMG]file:///C:/Users/Megan/AppData/Local/Temp/moz-screenshot.jpg[/IMG]
I do care about you, everyone cares about you.
Im scared one day I'll wake up and you wont be alive.
Really scared.
I care about you, too much? probably. But does it matter?
I care.
I hate your double standards, for him a guy you've known for less than two years, you'll take the time to comfort him and tell him its all right and not everbody hates you, no one wants you to go away, make sure you eat today even if you are depressed, please don't hurt yourself I love you. You'll push him to get out of bed and eat breakfast and go out to get grocerys with you. I'm your daughter but you've never done that for me, even when I was in the hospital a few years back. You just let me fall apart alone even though you know somethings wrong, its just not fair.
"Some people get by, with a little understanding. Some people get by, with a whole lot more."
Without you, the ground thaws, the rain falls, the grass grows,
Without you, the seeds root, the flowers bloom, the children play,
The stars gleam, the poets dream, the eagles fly,
Without you, the earth turns, the sun burns, But I die without you.
I haven't taken a shower in days. I'm disgusting. And I'm shutting everyone and everything out. It's not like anyone cares if I'm there or not anyway. Maybe I won't come back. Just to make it easier for you.
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me.
I cannot fight this horrendous need to hurt myself any more.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
Thank you for not giving up on me when I'm just about to give up on you.
I like the way you love me just the same. I love how your love in unconditional...I guess that's what makes you different from us humans.
I miss you and I'm so jealous of you. Please please get better, please be happy and healthy. You were so beautiful, I want to see you like that again.
Even if you hate me, even if you think I've done everything wrong and you can't bear to be around me I will always care about how you are and I will always be here for you.
It hurts to know the pain you must be going through but it hurts more not to know how you are.
Please let me know.
Always seem to get things just that little bit wrong.
"don't wish, don't start, wishing only wounds the heart"
Mother, It's none of your business who I'm texting. It's none of your business who calls me. Why can't everyone just stop trying to mother me and let me get on with it for FUCK SAKE!
The shift alone is crippling.
I don't want to go outside. I don't want to be seen by anyone at all. I should be quiet. I want to lock myself away so completely. Utter repulsion.
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
I can't talk to you and yet that is all you want. You don't get it. You probably never will. You don't understand how messed up I truly am.
I'm sorry I can't be the best friend you deserve.
It's the children the world almost breaks that grow up to save it.
-Frank Warren
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