Everything is falling apart*rant*
I use to be the friend people would ask for advice. how did you recover? I just played along like that's what happened. Now shits falling apart and im alone in this and I did this to myself instead of being honest when things where small now I cant deal with it and everyone thinks I am better. My boyfriend said it doesnt bother him unless i work on getting better no purging no self harm but now i can tell him because then i failed and he might break up with me. I am in counseling but idk how to talk to her yet shes new with me. my meds arent working, i cant get a job and working scares me because of ppl and anxiety, I have been purging again along with fasting but i am a bigger girl so its fine, and im trying really hard not to self harm. I dont know what im suppose to do about this i just feel really stuck.
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